A wiseman once told me:

"The thing about boys is that they are so very rational. And it's just how they are. The thing is,

we know better and boys are stupid."

I sometimes wonder whether they really understand the amount of patience and understanding we have.

I also sometimes wonder what is it like to really be in their shoes and theirs in ours.

I really really do.

Can i say it again?

I really really REALLYYY don't like the monster.

SERIOUSLY.

like you have NO IDEA.

again, BUAT BODOH SUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

everyone has only so much to take.

my patience for you is running thin.

it's either,

1) you talk to me, no, US with respect (even maids/slaves are not treated this way),

2) STOP accusing me for being imperfect and look at the BLOODY GODDAMN MIRROR,

3) treat others EQUALLY.

If not,

I will keep my distance further

So,

SHUT THE FUCK UP,

FUCK OFF

and

FUCK YOU.

okay baby. I will keep my hair long. I mean, I have always been. Looking at this girls, it just ressures me whyyy.

oh yes, Happy Birthday!

From all of us, I mean, your own angel, Sofi!

:)

Because all the pictures summarises 3 'milestones' of 2010 that I will never ever forget.

1) My 24th.

2) Arifah's arrival.

3) Many many epiphany moments.

ALHAMDULLILAH.

why is my niece, Nur Insyirah Nabilah so so sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute?

why ah?

how ah?

how ah how ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?

"This is what i call, the EDUCATED IDIOT"

LMAO

Emotional insecurity

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Insecurity may cause shyness, paranoia and social withdrawal,

or alternatively it may encourage

compensatory behaviors such as arrogance,aggression,

or bullying, a principle enshrined in the

phrase "all bullies are cowards." Many people suffer a

period of insecurity during puberty,

which gives rise to a lot of the stereotypical

behaviors of adolescents.

Also, sometimes people who have

a strong character can actually

suffer from emotional insecurity.

They may subconsciously have a

naturally strong character to hide inner personal feelings.

"You got clobbered! what the hell happened man? The other team didn't just beat you, they annihilated you!"

"I have more respect for a boxer that is in big trouble and goes out and gives everything and sometimes gets knocked down then a boxer who quits at his corner. I hate seeing a boxer quitting in his corner"

how about "You can't fire me, I quit !" lol, well, again, what is the range and context. highly, higly dependent on tt. after which, we question is it really worth it? whatever Michelle has signed off to, the opportunity better be damn good.

to sum it up,

my october has been awesome(eventhough it is not the end of it yet) and will always remember the lessons learnt from acta and the people that i have met.

when i am 35 and have kidssssss, i want to have a body like sharine.

when i am 62, i want to have the energy, the enthusiasm, the child-love, the sense of humour like david.

when i am 25, i want to be as successful, as influential, as effective, like isa.

when i am 29, i want to get my masters in THAT particular field, be very specific,clear and efficient like leonard.

when i am 65, i want to do the same thing like adrian and be at a platform where i can influence people around the world.

where i am now(not John's age), eventhough i have shake it up on a lot of things, i still want to offer my learners a different perspective and not only by the books.in John's work, "eh, never mind, come come, we only live once. hahahahahha"

when i get married(InsyaAllah, InsyaAllah), i want to do something with my husband and make the world a better place by embarking on a project like cheng hong and winston.

where i am now, i hope to be as articulate and hardworking to write a reflective journal everyday like kate.

when i decide to reside/migrate/study for awhile elsewhere, i want to be as comfortable, as bubbly like sheeba.

where i am right now, i have also learnt that,

when i have my own company, i will must not be selfish, arrogant and unappreciative.

i have to be very careful in choosing who are my friends,acquantices and those who are in my personal space no matter where i am.

i am very capable of detaching my emotions to unworthy moments to some friends.

i will try my level best to help myself first without being standoffish to the people around me.

listening has a greater power than talking.

and questioning has the greater power than listening.

lastly, before i die, i hope to learn as many things as i can and apply it at the best possible way to benefit myself and everyone.

it is going to be an amazing ride.

oh yeah,

THIS.IS.MY.ADVENTURE.

and i am beyondddddddddddddd EXCITED.

you know what.

i will never allow any of them to be like you.

in fact, i will NEVER be like you.

because i WILL NOT ALLOW IT.

the WORDS and TONES that you use are DESPICABLE, DISRESPECTFUL, DEGRADING and VERY VERY VERY HURTFUL.

i am aware. i have always been aware. better dealing at it. but that doesn't mean it leaves me unhurt. in fact, it leaves me a stronger person to deal with this NONSENSE.

it is nonsense.

pffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft.

I will never trust you 100%.

When do you draw the line?

How do you draw the line?

1 Syawal 1431H.

Today.

Today is the perfect day of reflection.

A reflection of Allah, ourselves and to others.

Today I see another part of you,

Or rather something I've always seen,

but just didn't read much about it.

Today, I reflect.

Today, I saw something in you,

in a different light or darkness.

Today, you tried so hard to piss me off,

which you thought was funny.

Today, I was totally nonchalant about it and even asked,

"Are you even listening to yourself?"

Today, today, I laughed not WITH you,

but AT you.

At how pathetic it was

to go to that extent.

Today, today, no, not today,

everyday,

you compare,

and,

to compare is to despair.

and everyday, you did, have been doing, will be doing,

just that.

Today, I cried.

I cried on the first of syawal for the first time.

Today, not today,

everyday,

for the good, the bad and the ugly,

i am very thankful and blessed,

for my parents,

my family and

food.

Today, not today,

i hear a person dying of cancer in stage 4

seeking for forgiveness and

do the EXACT opposite.

the intentions now will be questionable.

Today, we took a video,

made it a classic one.

Today, will mark the new tradition in the Arshad Family to make-a-video on the first syawal for memories sake.

Today, i realised that i can be a creative director

and have always known that

the purpose in her life is to make her life live to the fullest.

Selamat Hari Raya

Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Baysok conperm chope guarantee rumah Cikgu Hasan penuh dengan muslimin dan muslimat. Barakah!!!

pfffttttt..........

ignorance is a bliss when it comes to you.

less comm, more quality.

less affected, more nonchalant.

again and again and again.

because I am awesome,

BUAT BODOH SUA.

go and find someone else to be impatient with, demanding and to nag at.

it's sickening.
i am fine with my own ma.

highly irritable.

TRUST ALLAH S.W.T

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IYMKQKSV0bY

PASS IT ON.

When ideas have sex.

It's not important how clever individuals are, he says; what really matters is how smart the collective brain is - Matt Ridely