i still have a lot of things undone for tommorrow.

definitely not a wise thing to blog now,

but i am still high about yesterday's outing

and

got home around 2.30p.m!!!

heh.

we celebrated auntie agnes's birthday @sakura.

had a lot of funny moments which was super classic to the max.
we played PORTABLE TABOO where kat was super amazed by it. LOL. you know we love you felicia chin CHIN. oooops. sorry. kat!! haha

agnes sincerely thought that her name was SAKURA instead of shakeena. and we coined a second name for her, "HELLO HELLO friend" i still can't believe she gave me that straight face and say, "saya tak pakai telephone" when i said, hello hello, politely. haha. damn funny la she. i salute agnes for tolerating them in class. you have no idea how alecia can be super loud in the lecture la. haha. but thank GOD she learned tha art of ignoring. haha

and we did last minute shopping, more of me and alecia.haha.

agnes dearie trying to be holly... LOL

then, i head off to geylang to meet my mat dancers. raz trying to be my pencuri and i swear that ahchi banquet's glare is still stuck in my head la. jangan aku ter-celebrate deepavali besok sudah. haha. and isk, don't perasaan canadian k. JAMAL is a true blue malay Singaporean. haha

and THANK YOU NIZAM for the GREEN PACKETS. sorry la, but none of us are working full-time yet or either married, unlike you. but soon soon!haha. okay. i better get going before my mum shouts" SOFIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!"

And, one more thing of course,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

*HUGS*

i finally met up with teresa to catch up on good old times. she's one of my amazing friends that i can hold conversations for hours to talk about random stuffs and most of the common topic is basically about, people. i admire her on how she thinks rationally and view everything objectively.

so, tell me, if someone is insensitive, highly tactless and do not think of the consequences before they talk due their selfish means, what do we do? seriously, we can't do anything about it. really. despite countless confrontations, empty promises and manymany sticky situations, it pretty much doesn't change that much afterall. then what do you do if you are confronted with this kind of situations? breatheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. by all means, breatheeeeeeeeeeeeeee and tell youself, "he/she is just being himself/herself " obviously i have been there and done that many times, and seriously, i suck at handling it initially, and maybe up till today. i will be like "OHHH MYYY GODDDD WHAT DID SHE SAY????? DOES SHE EVEN KNOW WHAT SHE'S TALKING ABOUT?" and there goes the cycle of paranoia again of blaming myself and really, thinking too much of what i should have said or should have not said.

i hate being in that situation, but due to many past experiences, i have learned. i have learned to listen selectively, i have learned to self-console myself by constantly reminding myself that "she is just like that", everyone is different & not to be affected by it as much, i have learned that subconsciously, you might be doing the same thing to someone else and most importantly, i have learned to think and say appropriately eventhough it means disagreeing to the other person. it doesn't take a rocket scientist to be a little bit more sensitive and take some time to think before we start talking. my two tuition kids and my coaching kids have proved me right and at the age of around 9 and 1o. you will be amazed at how their little acts of sensitivity can be really heart-warming. but then, we are humans, we tend to err and possess 1001 feelings. so, thank you wazzy,su and you-sssssss-know-who-you-are- for always being there for me at the most randomest time in the most randomest place to rant on the most randomest thing. needless to say, i love you guys to atoms:)

okay, so i needed that to get it out of my system. but then again, though we want the picture to be painted perfectly, things may go otherwise. there's only so much we can do and the rest it's up to fate. -shrugs- hope for the very best then and at the same time, prepare for the ultimate worst. we all can try:)

I have been cyber-loafing for the past one hour or so, solely watching peterpan and ungu music videos on youtube. Today is definitely not a productive day as i did not even touch a single piece of paper which belongs to me. It either says,"situational writing", the word bank or anything related to tutoring. Yes, it's crunch time for the kids and with hari raya coming, it's a major distraction as the exams will suck out the fun-ness in the festive atmosphere. Bad timing it is, but evenso, green packets;coming in for them, while sometime around next year, the green packets will be coming from me.

Anyway, I am so so addicted to listening to indonesian music. No no, i am not talking about mimpi manis's "menculik hatikku", but peterpan's "menghapus jejakmu". And really, Ariel is undeniably H.O.T in that music video. In fact, he looks effing good in every single video. I like:)haha! talking about hot, my sister and I iftar-ed at marine parade's waroeng ayam penyet last sat and though i still prefer ria's ayam penyet at lucky plaza to some extent, i like the ambience at marine parade way better. with peterpan's song as their background music, and the fact that i feel comfortable with the temperature rather than saying "i am coldddd" every five seconds, i will definitely go back there. in fact, i wouldn't mind that for suppper now. ohhh... stop me!!haha. but the workers at waroeng ayam penyet are friendly too, we chatted a little bit about Ariel and discovered that he is a "M.B.A" funny how they come up with such acronyms but whether it's true or not, he still rocks la:)

So, with less than a week to hari raya, i better do my to-do list asap and stop cyber-loafing as much. But, prison break, the hills and heroes are an exception ... cannot cannot, that is wajib. haha! alrighty, happy spring cleaning people! *hugs

i had a decent conversation with him and surprisingly, there was no shoutings, no harshness and no vulgarities involved. it wasn't exaclty how i expected it to be especially based on the fact that he has been extremely patient with me after that day. in fact, i can barely recall if we ever said anything like that to each other before, besides kidding around, when we were in it.

point being, it's closed. settled. solved.

and probably a chapter that will never be opened again. it's really sad to deal with it in that manner, but we had to do what we have to do, i had to say what i have to say, assertively. and this time round, he finally gets it as i unclouded his mind for the umpteenth time. i wouldn't say what we went through was all perfect neither was it thunderous and nightmarish. the laughter that was filled in and the sincerity of it all made it wonderful and special. but i guess, things are just not meant to be one way or another and it's best we go separate ways. wasted as there could have been so much more to it, but sadly, on my part, it died. it died, eversince. though i wish i never heard or never seen, i guess reality is still my bestfriend. and i hope it's yours too.



:(

oh dear...

but seriously,

is it that difficult to ask,clarify,question,analyse,think it through,react rationally of it rather than jumping straight into conclusion?

if it is,

i guess it's not so bad being paranoid at all, sometimes.

me,my paranoia and my kianchiongness, major weakness.

but at least, after all that, i am pretty sure of it.

you don't deserve that my dear-s. but you-s will be okay.*hugs.

for the past three weeks or so,

i finally found the time to visit isk's hall.
wanted to surprise isk, but ended up surprising su instead.

i remembered vividly the conversation su had with isk saying that i was a "super bitch" for cancelling on them; which was part of my surprise plan! grrr...( kau baik mintak ampun dengan aku hari raya ini tauu!haha=P)
according to isk, i was so excited that i was hyper-vantilating. bedekk sey isk! haha. and su was stoned-ly surprised because she slept quite the night before. but wheeeeee.... at least i am managed to keep the surprise long enough and unexpected! oh trust me, i always cock up surprises. haha.
then we went to the next wave@ucc one of those sats. created our own rendition of the next wave, which we can call the tsunami.
of elephant legs, su's yoga dance and isk lari anak-anak(or is it lari-lari anak? my dad better not be reading this. i can just imagine him saying, sia-sia ejer jadi anak cikgu! haha).

but of course, raz's performace was still the best with tights and whatever-nots. hahaha

we bid coach kenny farewell and a safe trip where we imagine coach terence in orange cloth and botak head. i can never see him in the same light, thanks to coach siti. haha.

went to sahara to celebrate di and nad's bdae. i swear their birthday is everyday, everywhere,

and every minute laaaa!!!

and shah turns 21!!!! @ seoul garden and wazzy received a lovely surprise. and kana!!! happy 21st to you too dear. sat sat! but u must puasa k!hahahaha

all the bibik's

and om's buka-ed @ nyai's place and had a rollin' good time

of riding&driving and my lucky $1 coin,

got the cubic, not rectangular spongebob, where bibik syikin better hang it in her daddy's car=P

it's all good,

it's all good, i supposed.

but, i can't. i don't want to.

definitely not now.

please.

"Preparation will only take you so far, after that you gotta take a few leaps of faith."
Michael Scofield

Scofield: It’s just math.
Sucre: What if your math is wrong?
Scofield: You’ll drill into one of a dozen gas lines behind the wall. There’ll be an explosion and we’ll be burned alive.
Sucre: But you’re good at math, right?”

hahahahaha. cheeeeeeeeeeeersssssssss to season 3!!!!!!! one of my best stress reliever!
:)))))))

i don't like this feeling.

the feeling where you wish you can do something about it,

but

you

just

can't.

i am really sorry.

hopefully it will come soon.

it definitely will, no qualms about that,

but i am not sure when,

and i don't know how.

school started, with a blast for no particular reason. i simply love mondays because i have my mondok/qondok/qoonoksssss with me. thank god we have agnes to neutralize all the hyper-ness in the air. no more monday blueessss, i hope! and don't get me started on wednesday. oh.my.god. yogie bear! i want to ketuk your kepala you know!stop being irri-noYONG can!?!

i guess whether its tuesday, wednesday, thursday or friday, ten years down the road, i am going to miss every little bit of uni life. all the wonderful friends i made, the colourful notes being SOFIfied, and surprisingly, studying. so its the last year, just give your best of the best-est shot!*hugs

random school shots=)

and so, we had a mini celebration for yanie and shidah's birthday last wed. and yeah!! they love the presents=) oh oh! anddd that random baby bumble bee pic that you see is super adorable rite? he was pushing the pram all by himself la. i wanted to squeeze him and bite his cheeks off, until quincy had to say, "oh my god, my dog has the same exact outfit!"o_0 and what say you for popular pencil box? i think its effing cool la!!! hahahahahahahaha.

loco.


double loco.

=)

hair grows.

hair grows.

hair grows.

:)

lalalalalalala

I wish i knew exactly where did i go wrong and improve on it even harder, one year ago. But three hundred and sixty-five days passed by, and now, new challenges and difficulties. The disparity is so severe that it kills me whenever i think about it. Not loving numbers or a very tough paper shouldn't be an excuse to self when such situation comes to play. fate? shrugs. then why can't it come in patterns like all in one rather than having 3 out of 4? i know i don't have the right to question such statements, but sometimes, when you get really upset, you resort to insanity. yes, of course i cried, again and again which is the best comfort that i look for now. but then again, let's step up another level, pick myself up and go for it. JUST.GO.FOR.IT.

could it be that one last chance for me to keep up with the other 3 mods in the previous sem? i hope so, definitely. if that's the case, i better toughen up. 5 mods with credible results in the last year, ain't easy. But it's possible too. Insya'Allah.

*hugs.

and so,

she said goodbye.

but, one thing for sure, the kids smile, enthusiasm and love

will always
brighten up her day.

and of course, hello kl and school!

:)

LOVE, is ALL AROUND for life.
and seetal won the sim-rmit pageant!!!!!!!!

military rock baby!!!

bartley school of singapore!=P

afiqueeeeee!!

ting!

itiks@vivo. so fun i tell you!

yes afiq, kawaiiiii-neh!!!! haha

daud memang nak kena.

tey-ney-ney rite???

sayangggg ili!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the psychologist nurses.

sayanf manyak-manyakkkkkkkkk

ho-wa-ya-nieeeeeeeeeeee :)

fergIIIelicious!!!

chins up!!! hahahahahahahahaa

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