Sunday, May 15, 2011

manage your time wisely.

make time for things that are important to you and how important you are to others, no matter how busy you are.

PLAN your days and months such that you make the other part feel important as well.

DO NOT BE SELFISH AND TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED.

Life is short. BLOODY MANAGE YOUR FREAKING TIME AND PLAN IT WISELY.

enjoy the ride:)

Sunday, March 20, 2011

okay. get this.

'any challenges in life, are problem-solving.'

so, if a mother does not allow her daughter to buy the doll. thats the problem.
the way you solve, has got everything to do with it.

1) you cry and cry till the mother gives her the doll.

2) you comprehend the situation and accept it.

3) you ignore her for the whole day.

Any three option will give you a different outcome to the problem. Some maybe optimal and some are not. At the end of the day, if the solution satisfies both parties and not only one, emotional equilibrium has been reached.

I think it is really obvious that even people with the same wavelength are very different. It is obvious eventhough they are twins, they are still very different. But, isn't that how the world goes round?

So, given the situation, ANY situation. LET'S SOLVE IT TOGETHER. I mean, we are in this together right?

Yup, together.

And when it is solved, anything, anything is possible. ANYTHING.

Saturday, February 05, 2011

Sometimes I wonder why people are so cynical. Cynical about love, cynical about relationships and cynical about deals. It is so negative and disgusting. But you know what is the sad truth? The sad truth is that whatever they perceive on a certain issue is true to them, no matter what. At some point, you will realise that it doesn't matter what is the root cause of it as the outcome is still the same.

Then I question, when will one EVER be truly happy? When will one ever find fresh and new perspectives when all of it are negativities? We all have choices. Choices to live, choices to eat, choices to choose people in our lives. CHOICES.

There is, however a fine line. Once you make that choice that makes you happy, know the reason. This very reason will make you the person of who you want to be. People may hate you, rate you, shake you and break you. How strong you stand is what makes you.

Yes, we can be cynical. I wouldn't even go to the extend of being cynical, but I shall say, doubtful. Yes, we can be doubtful sometimes, but do make stand that is objective to others and yourself and find out the reasons why. Because at the end of the day, the reasons that you hold will be true to yourself.

Simply put, be positive and know exactly who you are no matter what others say.
What others say really doesn't matter, but what you say to yourself, matters most.

Sunday, January 02, 2011

What is Emotional Abuse?

Abuse is any behavior that is designed to control and subjugate another human being through the use of fear, humiliation, intimidation, guilt, coercion, manipulation etc. Emotional abuse is any kind of abuse that is emotional rather than physical in nature. It can include anything from verbal abuse and constant criticism to more subtle tactics, such as repeated disapproval or even the refusal to ever be pleased.

Emotional abuse is like brain washing in that it systematically wears away at the victim's self-confidence, sense of self-worth, trust in their own perceptions, and self-concept. Whether it is done by constant berating and belittling, by intimidation, or under the guise of "guidance," "teaching", or "advice," the results are similar. Eventually, the recipient of the abuse loses all sense of self and remnants of personal value. Emotional abuse cuts to the very core of a person, creating scars that may be far deeper and more lasting that physical ones. In fact there is research to this effect. With emotional abuse, the insults, insinuations, criticism and accusations slowly eat away at the victim's self-esteem until she is incapable of judging the situation realistically. She has become so beaten down emotionally that she blames herself for the abuse. Her self-esteem is so low that she clings to the abuser.

Emotional abuse victims can become so convinced that they are worthless that they believe that no one else could want them. They stay in abusive situations because they believe they have nowhere else to go. Their ultimate fear is being all alone.

Abusive Expectations

  • The other person places unreasonable demands on you and wants you to put everything else aside to tend to their needs.
  • It could be a demand for constant attention, or a requirement that you spend all your free time with the person.
  • But no matter how much you give, it's never enough.
  • You are subjected to constant criticism, and you are constantly berated because you don't fulfill all this person's needs.

  • Aggressive abuse can also take a more indirect form and may even be disguised and "helping." Criticizing, advising, offering solutions, analyzing, proving, and questioning another person may be a sincere attempt to help. In some instances however, these behaviors may be an attempt to belittle, control, or demean rather than help. The underlying judgmental "I know best" tone the abuser takes in these situations is inappropriate and creates unequal footing in peer relationships. This and other types of emotional abuse can lead to what is known as learned helplessness.

Constant Chaos

  • The other person may deliberately start arguments and be in constant conflict with others.
  • The person may be "addicted to drama" since it creates excitement.

Denying

  • Denying a person's emotional needs, especially when they feel that need the most, and done with the intent of hurting, punishing or humiliating (Examples)
  • The other person may deny that certain events occurred or that certain things were said. confronts the abuser about an incident of name calling, the abuser may insist, "I never said that," "I don't know what you're talking about," etc. You know differently.
  • The other person may deny your perceptions, memory and very sanity.
  • Withholding is another form of denying. Withholding includes refusing to listen, refusing to communicate, and emotionally withdrawing as punishment. This is sometimes called the "silent treatment."
  • When the abuser disallows and overrules any viewpoints, perceptions or feelings which differ from their own.
  • Denying can be particularly damaging. In addition to lowering self-esteem and creating conflict, the invalidation of reality, feelings, and experiences can eventually lead you to question and mistrust your own perceptions and emotional experience.
  • Denying and other forms of emotional abuse can cause you to lose confidence in your most valuable survival tool: your own mind.

Dominating

  • Someone wants to control your every action. They have to have their own way, and will resort to threats to get it.
  • When you allow someone else to dominate you, you can lose respect for yourself.

Emotional Blackmail

  • The other person plays on your fear, guilt, compassion, values, or other "hot buttons" to get what they want.
  • This could include threats to end the relationship, totally reject or abandon you, giving you the the "cold shoulder," or using other fear tactics to control you.

Invalidation

  • The abuser seeks to distort or undermine the recipient's perceptions of their world. Invalidating occurs when the abuser refuses or fails to acknowledge reality. For example, if the recipient tells the person they felt hurt by something the abuser did or said, the abuser might say "You are too sensitive. That shouldn't hurt you." Here is a much more complete description of invalidation

Unpredictable Responses

  • Drastic mood changes or sudden emotional outbursts. Whenever someone in your life reacts very differently at different times to the same behavior from you, tells you one thing one day and the opposite the next, or likes something you do one day and hates it the next, you are being abused with unpredictable responses.
  • This behavior is damaging because it puts you always on edge. You're always waiting for the other shoe to drop, and you can never know what's expected of you. You must remain hypervigilant, waiting for the other person's next outburst or change of mood.
  • An alcoholic or drug abuser is likely to act this way. Living with someone like this is tremendously demanding and anxiety provoking, causing the abused person to feel constantly frightened, unsettled and off balance.

Verbal Assaults

  • Berating, belittling, criticizing, name calling, screaming, threatening

  • Excessive blaming, and using sarcasm and humiliation.

  • Blowing your flaws out of proportion and making fun of you in front of others. Over time, this type of abuse erodes your sense of self confidence and self-worth.

    Characteristics of Emotionally Abused People


    • Judge themselves without mercy.
    • Have trouble accepting compliments.
    • Often take responsibility for problems, but not successes.
    • Or they go to the other extreme and refuse to take any responsibility for mistakes while trying to take credit for the work of others.
    • Have trouble having fun since their childhoods were lost, stolen, repressed.
    • Take themselves very seriously or not seriously at all.
    • Have difficulty with intimate relationships.
    • Expect others to just "know what they want." (They can't express it because they were so often disappointed as children that they learned to stop asking for things.)
    • Over-react to things beyond their control.
    • Feel different from others.
    • Are extremely loyal, even when facing overwhelming evidence that their loyalty is undeserved.
    • Are either super responsible or super irresponsible.
    • Tend to lock themselves into a course of action without giving serious consideration to alternative behaviors or possible consequences. (This impulsiveness leads to confusion, self-loathing, and loss of control over their environment. The result is they spend much energy blaming others, feeling victimized and cleaning up messes.)

    She also makes this observation:

    Intelligent people, through their ability to analyze, often realize things which are disconcerting, which others would not see. They also are often capable of feeling more deeply, both pain and joy.

    Adapted from Struggle for Intimacy, by Janet Gerringer Woititz

    See List 2 Below

    List 2 - source unknown
    • Feelings of low self- esteem (they say as a result of being criticized.)
    • We perpetuate these parental messages by judging ourselves and others harshly. We try to cover up our poor opinions of ourselves by being perfectionistic, controlling, contemptuous and gossipy.
    • We tend to isolate ourselves out of fear and we feel often uneasy around other people, especially authority figures.
    • We are desperate for love and approval and will do anything to make people like us. Not wanting to hurt others, we remain "loyal" in situations and relationships even when evidence indicates our loyalty is undeserved. (I would say not wanting to lose them, having an extremely hard time "letting go.")
    • We live life as victims, blaming others for our circumstances, and are attracted to other victims (and people with power) as friends and lovers. We confuse love with pity and tend to "love" people we can pity and rescue. (And we confuse love with need)
    • Denial, isolation, control, shame, and inappropriate guilt are legacies from our family of origin. As a result of these symptoms, we feel hopeless and helpless.
    • We have a strong need to be in control. We overreact to change things over which we have no control.


    Basic Needs in Relationships

If you have been involved in emotionally abusive relationships, you may not have a clear idea of what a healthy relationship is like. Evna (1992) suggests the following as basic needs in a relationship for you and your partner: (I have changed this from "rights" to "needs" and made other small changes- S.Hein)

  • The need for good will from the others.
  • The need for emotional support.
  • The need to be heard by the other and to be responded to with respect and acceptance
  • The need to have your own view, even if others have a different view.
  • The need to have your feelings and experience acknowledged as real.
  • The need to receive a sincere apology for any jokes or actions you find offensive.
  • The need for clear, honest and informative answers to questions about what affects you.
  • The need to for freedom from accusation, interrogation and blame.
  • The need to live free from criticism and judgment.
  • The need to have your work and your interests respected.
  • The need for encouragement.
  • The need for freedom from emotional and physical threat.
  • The need for freedom from from angry outburst and rage.
  • The need for freedom from labels which devalue you.
  • The need to be respectfully asked rather than ordered.
  • The need to have your final decisions accepted.
  • The need for privacy at times.
Know who you are.
Reflect more positively on things.
Stop emotional abuse.

Friday, December 31, 2010




2010 marks a different meaning to the word: FAMILY

MY FAMILY
ZARKASIH ADLAN
KODOK FAMILY





























TEAM K FAMILY















TJC GIRLFRIENDS FAMILY

















BUTTSISTAS FAMILY















SRJC FAMILY

2010?
ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULLILAH
If it's not for these wonderful families,
I honestly don't know where I would be.
Thank you guys for being SO SO
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
AWESOME
in my life.

2011?
It's going to be EQUALLY AWESOME,
IF NOT, MANY MANY MANYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
TIMESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS MORE
AWESOMEEEE

HAPPY 2011 SISTERS, BROTHERS, MUMMIES and DADDIES!!!

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

My favourite quotes from my Su Octopus:)

"it's really nice when your amazing friends love the guy you love almost as much as you do"

" most people fail at whatever they attempt because of an undecided heart. should I? should I not? success requires the emotional balance of a committed heart. when confronted with a challenge, the committed heart will search for a solution. the undecided heart searches for an escape. a committed heart does not wait for conditions to be exactly right. why? because, conditions are never exactly right. "

"insanity keeps us sane"





SO SO SAYANG the OCTOPUS.

Monday, December 27, 2010

A wiseman once told me:

"The thing about boys is that they are so very rational. And it's just how they are. The thing is,
we know better and boys are stupid."

I sometimes wonder whether they really understand the amount of patience and understanding we have.

I also sometimes wonder what is it like to really be in their shoes and theirs in ours.

I really really do.