Friday, July 31, 2009


"Don't Give Up"- D'Masiv


Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Kita pasti pernah
Dapatkan cobaan yang berat
Seakan hidup ini
Tak ada artinya lagi

Syukuri apa yang ada
Hidup adalah anugerah
Tetap jalani hidup ini
Melakukan yang terbaik

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
Kebesaran dan kuasanya
Bagi hambanya yang sabar
Dan tak kenal putus asa

Ironic how zak needs to here those words the mostttttt when he is there all by yourself,with no internet, no friends and no basic laundry.Anyway,It is really a lovely song and how meaningful it is to me. Coincidentally it was in line with what su octopus shared with me that day, "Jangan kau sesali segala yang telah terjadi" Two days after tt he texted me to listen to "Jangan Menyerah-Dont give up" by D'masiv"


So, this wak bali has been very much a mat bali that he is picking up fast. besides the fact that he is watching sinetron-cinta fitri every single second, he sent me a msg saying, "aku butuh kamu" Honestly, i really really thought it was a baddd word that i maki-ed him back. little did i know that it means "need" and he was like, no wonderr kau maki-hamun aku eh.. haha. oh wells, sorry laaa but tts the closest i could find that i even googled a kamus bali to convert the word! so glad tt his condition is better with no complications.he is taking the swab test tom morning and hopefully the result is negative. furthermore they wont let him stay there for more than 7 days. so fight the virus zak! fight!!!!!

and yes, so for the past few days or so, i had slight cough and ohhhhhhhmyyyyyygoddd you dont have any idea how singaporeans look at you and get their eyes locked at you just because you are coughingggg. i mean c'mon. i closed my mouth when i coughed anddddddddd i wiped it w antispetic wipes(yes i bought them) too. i was so shocked at their expression that seriously i will cough with my mouth closed and show a puffer fish face(sofish) haha, but really reallly. even if you are slightly sick, go get the medication okayyyyyyyy. so take care of yourself and *hugs.
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Monday, July 27, 2009

we are still younggggg. GOD. honestly, sometimes i forget that i am 22 years old. yes. 22 years old. if i were to follow the life expectancy of women in Singapore, which is 82. i have 60 looooooong years of experience on this planet earth or marsss(for heaven's sake!) and venus(girl power baby!). so that means, 60 years of making choices. many many tough choices and hence, tough decisions and finally good/bad experience. but then again being the kind of industry that i am in, the fragility of life is so surreal that in one second, one can have a cardiac arrest, R.I.P MJ. or a stroke can lead to death. Al-fatheha for Almarhumah Yasmin Ahmad.

life is really really short isn't it? it is super cliche' but really there are so so so many things i wanna do! i want to go to santorini islands to see the beautiful view of the houses and floweres, i want to meet people from all walks of life, i want to spread the beautiful thing about lvoe to everyone. so, whatever it is, get out of the brood zone and bounce high up, really high up to reach the pinnacle! at the end of the day, i ask myself, "have i touched your life? because you've touched mine."happy, warm, fuzzy, lovely feelings!*hugs.but do tt always happen in the real world? of course not. i've been disappointed, betrayed, hurt, rejected by a lot of things. probably because of my ownself that i allow these feelings to be. but i have a choice. a choice to choose my feelings, my thoughts, my actions. for that, knowing what really REALLY REALLLY matters to me is damn effing important.

zak is in bali all alone in a foreign country watching sinetron every single second. poor boy is infected with the babi flu after going there for the second time in two months. but hell yeahhhh, he is a very very strong and an indepentttttttt boy. he is recovering very quickly and still thinking of going surfing again when he gets back. tom he will get the results from jakarta to see what the blood tests have shown. i wish i am a superwoman and fly there just to be by your side, but nevertheless i am sure you enjoyed your bali trip to the maxxxxxxxxxxxx with the boys right? please pray that the results are good so that he can come home soon. *hugs. i miss you zak:(

so, i've no idea how much my hp bill is gg to be this month,but i guess that's the least i can do for him to keep him company. hopefully the parcel that i sent over yesterday will reach there tom boy! thank god singpost is open on sundays till 4.

and i will end of what my wise su octopus said

the most important thing, i feel is. to always know that you are held responsible for everything you do and to never regret it:)