hungreh.

oh yeahhhh. sticking to it. stickinggggggggg to it.

how trueeee!!!
enjoy reading ppl.

Difference between men and women

Let’s say a guy named Fred is attracted to a woman named Martha. He asks her out to a movie; she accepts; they have a pretty good time. A few nights later he asks her out to dinner, and again they enjoy themselves. They continue to see each other regularly, and after a while neither one of them is seeing anybody else. And then, one evening when they’re driving home, a thought occurs to Martha, and, without really thinking, she says it aloud: “Do you realize that, as of tonight, we’ve been seeing each other for exactly six months?” And then, there is silence in the car. To Martha, it seems like a very loud silence. She thinks to herself: I wonder if it bothers him that I said that. Maybe he’s been feeling confined by our relationship; maybe he thinks I’m trying to push him into some kind of obligation that he doesn’t want, or isn’t sure of. And Fred is thinking: Gosh. Six months. And Martha is thinking: But, hey, I’m not so sure I want this kind of relationship either. Sometimes I wish I had a little more space, so I’d have time to think about whether I really want us to keep going the way we are, moving steadily towards, I mean, where are we going? Are we just going to keep seeing each other at this level of intimacy? Are we heading toward marriage? Toward children? Toward a lifetime together? Am I ready for that level of commitment? Do I really even know this person? And Fred is thinking: …so that means it was…let’s see…February when we started going out, which was right after I had the car at the dealer’s, which means…lemme check the odometer…Whoa! I am way overdue for an oil change here. And Martha is thinking: He’s upset. I can see it on his face. Maybe I’m reading this completely wrong. Maybe he wants more from our relationship, more intimacy, more commitment; maybe he has sensed - even before I sensed it - that I was feeling some reservations. Yes, I bet that’s it. That’s why he’s so reluctant to say anything about his own feelings. He’s afraid of being rejected. And Fred is thinking: And I’m gonna have them look at the transmission again. I don’t care what those morons say, it’s still not shifting right. And they better not try to blame it on the cold weather this time. What cold weather? It’s 87 degrees out, and this thing is shifting like a garbage truck, and I paid those incompetent thieves $600. And Martha is thinking: He’s angry. And I don’t blame him. I’d be angry, too. I feel so guilty, putting him through this, but I can’t help the way I feel. I’m just not sure. And Fred is thinking: They’ll probably say it’s only a 90-day warranty…scumballs. And Martha is thinking: Maybe I’m just too idealistic, waiting for a knight to come riding up on his white horse, when I’m sitting right next to a perfectly good person, a person I enjoy being with, a person I truly do care about, a person who seems to truly care about me. A person who is in pain because of my self-centered, schoolgirl romantic fantasy. And Fred is thinking: Warranty? They want a warranty? I’ll give them a warranty. I’ll take their warranty and stick it right up their… “Fred,” Martha says aloud. “What?” says Fred, startled. “Please don’t torture yourself like this,” she says, her eyes beginning to brim with tears. “Maybe I should never have…oh dear, I feel so…”(She breaks down, sobbing.) “What?” says Fred. “I’m such a fool,” Martha sobs. “I mean, I know there’s no knight. I really know that. It’s silly. There’s no knight, and there’s no horse.” “There’s no horse?” says Fred. “You think I’m a fool, don’t you?” Martha says. “No!” says Fred, glad to finally know the correct answer. “It’s just that…it’s that I…I need some time,” Martha says. (There is a 15-second pause while Fred, thinking as fast as he can, tries to come up with a safe response. Finally he comes up with one that he thinks might work.) “Yes,” he says. (Martha, deeply moved, touches his hand.) “Oh, Fred, do you really feel that way?” she says. “What way?” says Fred. “That way about time,” says Martha. “Oh,” says Fred. “Yes.” (Martha turns to face him and gazes deeply into his eyes, causing him to become very nervous about what she might say next, especially if it involves a horse. At last she speaks.) “Thank you, Fred,” she says. “Thank you,” says Fred. Then he takes her home, and she lies on her bed, a conflicted, tortured soul, and weeps until dawn, whereas when Fred gets back to his place, he opens a bag of Doritos, turns on the TV, and immediately becomes deeply involved in a rerun of a college basketball game between two South Dakota junior colleges that he has never heard of. A tiny voice in the far recesses of his mind tells him that something major was going on back there in the car, but he is pretty sure there is no way he would ever understand what, and so he figures it’s better if he doesn’t think about it. The next day Martha will call her closest friend, or perhaps two of them, and they will talk about this situation for six straight hours. In painstaking detail, they will analyze everything she said and everything he said, going over it time and time again, exploring every word, expression, and gesture for nuances of meaning, considering every possible ramification. They will continue to discuss this subject, off and on, for weeks, maybe months, never reaching any definite conclusions, but never getting bored with it either. Meanwhile, Fred, while playing racquetball one day with a mutual friend of his and Martha’s, will pause just before serving, frown, and say: “Norm, did Martha ever own a horse?” And that’s the difference between men and women.

the last few days before syawal is overrr.

2009 raya season is almost fading away
and the sweetest part of it all
is spending
every moment with you.

thank you baby for the car rides,
driving us around eventhough you are dead tired
for trying not to complain at all
and just being youuuuuuu.
you make me fall in love with you all over and over and over again.

*hugs.
To those countless times that i have been nagging at you.
complaining lil bit too much to you
punching and pinching and abusing you. haha.
losing your mind because of my tey-ney-ney-ness
and
always always always
being ever patient, kind and lovinggggg for us.


Selamat Hari Raya
dan
Beribu-ribu-ribu-ribu-ribuuuu ampun segala dosa-dosaaaaa sayang.
haha.
*hugs

Berseri murni
Di pagi Aidilfitri
Bersalam-salaman
Mengheningkan dosa amalan mulia

Bermaafan keinsafan
Di pagi Aidilfitri
Moga panjang umur bersama
Menikmati keindahan pagi Aidilfitri

Damainya di jiwa
Suasana hari raya
Teman sanak saudara senyuman nan mesra
Harmoni bahagia

Illahi berkati
Di pagi Aidilfitri
Ku bersyukur dan ku berdoa
Terus mengecap nikmat di pagi Aidilfitri

Tergambar riang ria
Di pagi hari raya
Suara kanak-kanak tertawa
Oh gembira wajah ayah bonda

Bermaafan keinsafan
Di pagi Aidilfitri
Moga panjang umur bersama
Menikmati keindahan pagi Aidilfitri

Berseri murni
Di pagi Aidilfitri
Bersalam-salaman mengheningkan dosa
Amalan mulia

Illahi berkati
Di pagi Aidilfitri
Ku bersyukur dan ku berdoa
Terus mengecap nikmat di pagi Aidilfitri
Mengecap nikmat di pagi aidilfitri

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

Maaf Zahir dan Batin

evolved.

hey love, it's not even a learned art. there is no way to do that. our lives are not like novels where, there has to be an ending. so the authors purposely tried to help the readers make sense of all the character's idiosyncrasies, the reasons behind some of the things they said. everything just left in the open, just for us to understand or to rationalize things. especially feelings, sayang. all i know is that, every single day now. i try to do things that would make me uncomfortable. out of my comfort zone, something you have been awesome at. like, be abit more vulnerable and honest again. because, even if i don't understand the person on the other end. i understand me better.


it's so freaking true isn't it? sometimes you just don't understand what the other party(parents,sister,brother,friends,clients and colleagues) wants even when you give your 1002338949234028340% shot in everything and anything in this universe that you can possible think of. and THEN you start to analyse, analyse and ANALyse until you get paralysed. because honestly, if it has anything to do with me, the self-awareness bell would have rung and do something about it. and tt would have already been done in the 598250928395% of the actions taken. if not, be upfront about it. many many a times i find myself, " i don't understandddd, i gave her everything she wants, i cleaned the kitchen, she makes noise, i buy her favourite things, he makes noise etc..." what does she really expect the world out of me? haha. well, pain(zak) has got to be the greatest teacher of them all.hell yeah he can be a pain in the ass sometimes(but seriously,i think i am more irr-noying than him). haha. but with this pain i realised i gained perspective about life and most importantly understand my flaws even better, with su octopus concluding a bombastic conclusion. i have this euphoric energy in me that is bursting to continue my mission. a mission to complete. and that's a promise to myself.*hugs


therefore
understand oneself better.
not him, not her, not you.
but, myself better; ourselves better.
because there is always room for personal growth and development.
i am beyonnddd excited.

woooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooo!!!!

energy level: 100000000000000000000000000000%!!!!!

No Complaints. No Whines. No Dissatisfaction.

CCC:) su happy feet!

<3

when yani wished to be healthy for her 27th birthday i couldnt agree more with her for the simple yet poignant wish. if ever there is a valedictorian in UOL (University of Life), this woman no doubt will be the one. i love the feeling when you are inspired by someone who understands the complexity of life. and to understand a situation of a certain aspect in life is not an easy task. so when su octopus called up this afternoon with her cheerful voice and say, " Sofii!!! i just wanted to say hellooo and its just that these few days has been great and i understand what has been happening ,in terms of my projects, fyp, etcc..." somehow,i could relate to her. she sounded as though she has reached nirvana and whatever storm or tsunami that's going to hit you, you are going to pull through. pull through the strong current winds of life. *hugs. i don't know what the future holds, i don't know how it will be. i don't know where will it be. and through these hardknocks of life is where we learn from each other to be wiser, stronger and smarter in our moves. InsyaAllah.

Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show

for every person you meet, make sure you make them happier and better than before!:)

Sempurna.

Concession fares - NUS, NTU, SMU and SIM, we're all students but...

Why discriminate on concession fares, asks student. -ST

Sun, Aug 16, 2009
The Straits Times

I AM probably not the first reader to write about this, and I do not think I will be the last either.

I understand that students in the National University of Singapore (NUS), Nanyang Technological University (NTU) and Singapore Management University (SMU) are issued with an ez-link concession card on entry to the school. However, that is not the case for the Singapore Institute of Management (SIM).

Why am I different because I study in SIM? I am still a student.

I also understand that most, if not all, foreign students studying in the three universities are issued with an ez-link concession cards. As a citizen and a full-time student, am I not entitled to the same privileges as other tertiary students?

I understand SIM is a private institution with many working adults who enrol in part-time courses. But there are also many full-time students. As full-time students, many of us do not have the time to take a part-time job that will pay significantly more than the allowances parents may give their children who study in the three universities.

No doubt there is the new ez-link season pass, or the SBS season pass, but they cost more than a student can afford. Furthermore, students in some private institutions such as Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts and LaSalle College of the Arts can apply for ez-link concession cards. So what about full-time students of SIM?






Finally finallyyy finallyyyy my prayers are PARTLY answered. i share the same sentiments as Charles You and i wonder and ponder what will goverment do about it. And trust me, this isn't the only thing that i'm unhappy about. No doubt i've graduated and met awesome awesome friends there, but there are also other rights denied as a SIM student. i can go on and on about this. But i still feel strongly about certain things. Maybe i am too afraid to voice out or maybe i am just going with the flow, and Charles You, i salute you for voicing it out cos its time for a damn change. "bumiputras or not, we are still Lee Kuan Yew's great great great grandchildren."

making every minute count

you know, i used to hate HATE eating apples. i hated the fact that it tasteless and only watermelon/longan rules the world of fruit. just about a few weeks ago i started cultivating the habit of eating apples everyday. it is not because i want to lose weight but because of the very fact that i realised how "strong" my immune system is and my temptation is. seriousllyyy how can you resist the shaker friesss, especially when you are there most of the timeeee. but the bigger picture is, an apple a day keeps the doctor away and i seriously don't ever have a need to see the doctorrrr again. please please take care of your health, your mind and your body peopleee as it is too fragile to be ignorant of :s

the real good things in life are things which doesnt taste half as good. but the benefits and rewards are a abundance. therefore, let's look at the bigger picture and sometimes, you just gotta lurrveeeeee you irritation. *hugs.

everysingleminutecount baby!
no more 5 minutes! no more 10 minutes!no more 15 minutes!
majorrr overhaul needed

have you seen my dinosaur laptop? well, it is not in the bestest condition as the keyboard is not intact. anddd when i am on skype, the other party thinks i am a warzone typing on the freaking keyboard!. but when moments like this, i thank god for having skype to capture some of the ridiculous things tt these ppl do.

"this is how you look like when you nag" idiot. you deserved it okay!tey-ney-ney

cilin's veryyyyyyyyyyy pretty face in doha.

kakak cilin wearing make-up using tia amelia sunblock as the base foundation only laaa.cilin, i miss you calling me cofi.

and zak, with no eyes but only gigi.

so go download skype.com then we can webcam togeder-geder k. *hugs

1.5L of patience every single second and do the bestest in everthinggggg that you do:)

we.are.familyyyyyy

okay. i sayang-sayangggg my family. and last weekend was just super kecohhhh ah. i think dad's gesture of asking nyai to sleepover at swissotel and enjoy fireworks was simply sweet despite the fact that my nyai is wheel-chair bound. and one thing i realised that after 22 years dad still calls me, "eh soupy! kau teman nyai tidur hotel ari ini ehhh..." some things never change la ehh. anywayy, the view from the two hotel rooms was spectacular though e balcony was overload w kids and veryyy overgrown kidss. i stole the pictures from husni's friend who took from us and the pictures were awesome. i didn't really get to see the fireworks much though as i was calming my little nephew down but nevertheless, i think everyone had their share of fun.

so zak is back and healthy. he still had the bali smell which i wonder.did he really mandi after he went back and meet me. haha. i don't exactly know how to describe it. but its just one of a kinddd. the addictive kind. photos of bali were uploaded and damnit mannn there were so many places tt we should have gone tt me and syirin didnt get to go. but the boyssss had fun with evidences of incriminating photos. tsk tsk. haha. and i totally agree with syirin when she said, "the trip wouldnt be that seruuu without us eh syirin!" haha. amiacaim syirinn. next trip, dohaaa ah babe. haha. kesian kauu.

and omggg. yesterday i was so high on laughter with su octopus, laughing and laughing about god knows what la. really wished tt cilin would be there or we had skype or somethinggg. i miss having that moments. that kind of feeling where you just feel full of life. filled with joy and laughter and lovely moments. it makes a hell lot of difference than jjust sitting down and staring into the blank space not doing or thinking too much about something. *hugs and never letting go*

so, i so need to get ready for work and i know its going to be an awesome AWESOME AWESOME week this week, next week and many many more weeks to come! so, go away babi flu, go away teneyneyyy and come joy and laughterrr okay!*hugs

beautiful beautiful voice this boy has. and you know what. i am not even into idol. well, except for taufik and hadi( haha) but whoever this dude isss.. i gotta meet him. so as you know, my friend budi is the singapore blogger and he is thrillleddddd to become one. and today is one of the many many nights where i just cant freaking sleep, i visited http://blogs.xin.sg/idol/ and there are sneak peeks to it. and when i heard this guy singingggggg. its a nice lullaby to just fall asleep to hear his melodious voice ahhh.apparently, WHATEVER stays in idol, DOESN'T really stay in idol huh. so do visit sg idol website cos i think budi has done quite a good job in it and i better listen to Yasin rite now because i swear the voices in my head is NOT exactly what i want to hear now. happy saturday people and oh yess the mat bali is coming home tom.

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness well its's all I'm after
Just call my name
And I'll be there

AWESOME POWSOME.

"Don't Give Up"- D'Masiv

Tak ada manusia

Yang terlahir sempurna

Jangan kau sesali

Segala yang telah terjadi

Kita pasti pernah

Dapatkan cobaan yang berat

Seakan hidup ini

Tak ada artinya lagi

Syukuri apa yang ada

Hidup adalah anugerah

Tetap jalani hidup ini

Melakukan yang terbaik

Tak ada manusia

Yang terlahir sempurna

Jangan kau sesali

Segala yang telah terjadi

Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
Kebesaran dan kuasanya

Bagi hambanya yang sabar

Dan tak kenal putus asa

Ironic how zak needs to here those words the mostttttt when he is there all by yourself,with no internet, no friends and no basic laundry.Anyway,It is really a lovely song and how meaningful it is to me. Coincidentally it was in line with what su octopus shared with me that day, "Jangan kau sesali segala yang telah terjadi" Two days after tt he texted me to listen to "Jangan Menyerah-Dont give up" by D'masiv"

So, this wak bali has been very much a mat bali that he is picking up fast. besides the fact that he is watching sinetron-cinta fitri every single second, he sent me a msg saying, "aku butuh kamu" Honestly, i really really thought it was a baddd word that i maki-ed him back. little did i know that it means "need" and he was like, no wonderr kau maki-hamun aku eh.. haha. oh wells, sorry laaa but tts the closest i could find that i even googled a kamus bali to convert the word! so glad tt his condition is better with no complications.he is taking the swab test tom morning and hopefully the result is negative. furthermore they wont let him stay there for more than 7 days. so fight the virus zak! fight!!!!!

and yes, so for the past few days or so, i had slight cough and ohhhhhhhmyyyyyygoddd you dont have any idea how singaporeans look at you and get their eyes locked at you just because you are coughingggg. i mean c'mon. i closed my mouth when i coughed anddddddddd i wiped it w antispetic wipes(yes i bought them) too. i was so shocked at their expression that seriously i will cough with my mouth closed and show a puffer fish face(sofish) haha, but really reallly. even if you are slightly sick, go get the medication okayyyyyyyy. so take care of yourself and *hugs.

:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

we are still younggggg. GOD. honestly, sometimes i forget that i am 22 years old. yes. 22 years old. if i were to follow the life expectancy of women in Singapore, which is 82. i have 60 looooooong years of experience on this planet earth or marsss(for heaven's sake!) and venus(girl power baby!). so that means, 60 years of making choices. many many tough choices and hence, tough decisions and finally good/bad experience. but then again being the kind of industry that i am in, the fragility of life is so surreal that in one second, one can have a cardiac arrest, R.I.P MJ. or a stroke can lead to death. Al-fatheha for Almarhumah Yasmin Ahmad.

life is really really short isn't it? it is super cliche' but really there are so so so many things i wanna do! i want to go to santorini islands to see the beautiful view of the houses and floweres, i want to meet people from all walks of life, i want to spread the beautiful thing about lvoe to everyone. so, whatever it is, get out of the brood zone and bounce high up, really high up to reach the pinnacle! at the end of the day, i ask myself, "have i touched your life? because you've touched mine."happy, warm, fuzzy, lovely feelings!*hugs.but do tt always happen in the real world? of course not. i've been disappointed, betrayed, hurt, rejected by a lot of things. probably because of my ownself that i allow these feelings to be. but i have a choice. a choice to choose my feelings, my thoughts, my actions. for that, knowing what really REALLY REALLLY matters to me is damn effing important.

zak is in bali all alone in a foreign country watching sinetron every single second. poor boy is infected with the babi flu after going there for the second time in two months. but hell yeahhhh, he is a very very strong and an indepentttttttt boy. he is recovering very quickly and still thinking of going surfing again when he gets back. tom he will get the results from jakarta to see what the blood tests have shown. i wish i am a superwoman and fly there just to be by your side, but nevertheless i am sure you enjoyed your bali trip to the maxxxxxxxxxxxx with the boys right? please pray that the results are good so that he can come home soon. *hugs. i miss you zak:(

so, i've no idea how much my hp bill is gg to be this month,but i guess that's the least i can do for him to keep him company. hopefully the parcel that i sent over yesterday will reach there tom boy! thank god singpost is open on sundays till 4.

and i will end of what my wise su octopus said

the most important thing, i feel is. to always know that you are held responsible for everything you do and to never regret it:)

okay. i had an awful awful nightmare and seriouslyyyyyyy, i.don't.even.want.to.think.about.it.
it must have been the tremendous of stress that i'm going through. but what the hell.
SYIRIN IS LEAVING on the 11th of July!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this woman spells out the word RELAX, like literally and there was soooooooooo many moments that this woman unknowingly made my life wonderful when it gets tough. seriously, when was the last time you lost your temper? or when wad the last time you broke down and cried? you don't even recognise those words syirin. the only things that's in your voacbulary is happiness. true true happiness.so i asked her, "why are you always so calm, cool and collected?" there's a lot of things i learned and in the event you really do not know anything, just pray. Just pray.*hugs maybe i have dreamt a lot of wonderful things about you syirin and when i had that awfulll awfulll nightmare minutes ago, i just can't bear the thought of not having to call you up and hear your nonsense again. i know i've been busy with work eversince i started work. but seriously, each time that amount of stress and other negativites comes in, i will remember you. i will remember your gilaness, your super efficient-self at handling things and all. GOD. this is damn an emo entryyyy ah. but heck it. it's been quite sometime since i pour out my emotions and i just want to say, i love you syirin. i believe i speak for the other kodoks and my su octopus as well. so just stay wonderful, alright?*HUGS

jimbaran beach!
june 09

because we fall,
we ALL fall,
sometimes.

and we need courage, love and confidence to rise, all the time.
ALL THE TIME
you can,
yes,
you cannnn.

" gloryyyy glorryyy man uniteddddd...................................................."

to have zak singing that to me in the middle of the night, i swear to God i thought he was mengigau-ingggg ahhh, when he called me. but this very boy converted me into a man-u supporter, unintentionally and not forjetting a minah-scrambler too. i really macam PAHAM know bout them winning the second leg semi-final and going to rome and alll that, padahallll satu kacanggg putehhh pon tak tahu! haha. as the saying goes, suit the burger laaa. but to have the newsfeed from zak and my prospects,the soccer world is not that bad eyy? but i still think watching the guys reaction when they watch soccer is much more interesting then watching the whole 90 mins game. haha. much much much more dramaa.

anywayyyyy, my su happy feet had her last paper of her entire life just now and she's soon going to be a graduate! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! shackle is off and now she can run free baby! and this woman, without a doubt will succeed in the social university as well la, especially with her nowist attitude.so,jiayou suuu!:)

yes, now now now now nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
whooosh!

*hugs

When this video was shown during the champs meeting,it truly touched my heart and made me tear. how can a simple action be so so emotional impactful to oneself? its the simplest and smallest things that matters most. go give someone or your pet or your teddy bear a hug today.*hugssssssss

Anyway, THE day of dressing up like "harmonie(harry potter)" finally came!honestly, i felt a little bit tey-ney-ney because most of my study buddies was in session 3 rather in session 1. but nevertheless, if not for my family, zak and a few kodoks, i would have probably drowned myself in the regalia alll by myselfffff.
nurain, gua sayang sama kamu ia. thank you for alwayssss alwayssss being smileyyy and happy.will never forget that laughter of yours!

su-isk, spank spank youuuuuuuu for cominggg. JIAYOUUUU for your exams

zak, thank you for making my uni life sweeter and my final year in uni the MOST memorable one ever.*hugs

bahhhhh. i am so so going to misss meeting these peoplec in school.

my beloved family.*hugs.

anddddddddddddddddddddddddd, we are ONE baby!
:)))))))))))))))Alhamdulilah:))))))))))))))

many manyyyyyyyyy manyyyyyyyyy more days, months, years to come InsyaAllah, Ameen.

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I love you Zak, so so much.

are you sick? probably you want to visit Allah's Clinic, the bestest remedy ever! :) anywayyyyy, will upload and tell more stories about my convocationnn. woohooo!:)

I went to the God's Clinic to have my routine check -up
and I confirmed I was ill :

When Allah took my blood pressure. He was
I was low in tenderness

When he read my temperature, the thermometer
registered 40 degree of anxiely.

He ran an electrocardiogram and found that I
needed several "Love bypasses" since my
artries were blocked with loneliness and
could not provide for any empty heat.

I went to orthopedics, because I could not walk
by my brother's side and I could not hug my friends,
since I had fractured myself when tripping with envy.

He also found out that I was shortsighted, since
I could not see beyond the shortcomings of my brothers and sisters.

When complained about deafness, the diagnostic was that
I had stopped listening to Allah,
voice talking to me on a daily basis.

For all of that, Allah gave me a free consultation
thanks to His mercifulness, so my pledge is to,
once I leave this Clinic,
only take the natural remedies he prescribed through his words of truth.

EVERY MORNING,
take a full glass of gratitude

When getting to work, take one spoon of peace

Every Hour,
take one pill of patience, one cup of brotherhood and one glass of Humility

When getting Home, take one dose of Love

When getting to bed, take two caplets of clear conscience

Do not give in into sadness or desperation for what you
are going through today.

God knows how you feel.......

God knows exactly and with perfection
what is being allowed to happen
to you in your life at this precise moment.....

God's purpose for you is simply perfect.

He wants to show you things that
only you can understand by living what you are living
and by being in the place you are now.


May God give you........
For every storm, a rainbow,
For every tear, a smile
For every care, a promise
And a blessing in each trial,
For every problem life sends,
A faithful friend to share,
For every sigh, a sweet song,
And an answer for each prayer.

How trueeeee:) get well sooon yea and i hope you will be in the pinkestttttt of health, emotionally and physically always! *hugs.

em⋅brace (m-brs)

1.	to take or clasp in the arms; press to the bosom; hug.

2.	to take or receive gladly or eagerly; accept willingly: to embrace an idea.

3.	to avail oneself of: to embrace an opportunity.

4.	to adopt (a profession, a religion, etc.): to embrace Islam.

5.	to take in with the eye or the mind.

6.	to encircle; surround; enclose.

I came across this word too many times but failed to internalize the true meaning of it. Though I'm still in the midst in internalizing the meaning, I constantly remind myself to accept things just the way they are. There are so so so many new things out there, to learn, to cherish, to love, to care and to hope for. Is there a need to be cold? Is there a need to worry? Is there a need to really sweat the small stuff ? Eventhough these negativities are being slapped at our faces everyday, embrace it, for that is just one of rules of life.

You can pull through this, Aidah. I know you can. *hugs

song CONSTANLY ringing in my head:

"I used to rule the world................Seas would rise when I gave the word!!!"

This time round. I made a bad decision. A really baddd one. But with bad decisions, come experience and then, come good decisions rite?haha. So, the next time, when Coldplay comes to play in Singapore again, Din kentutttt or sister or whoeverrrrrrr la, pester and beggg me like mad to go okay? Bahhhhhhhhhh.

Andddd, meet my dadddddddddd.
Well, he doesnt exactly have triple chins or something, but this is his very best attempt to look "slim". with stomach totally sucked in and posing his better profile. haha. so cute rite? now that he is so so into psychology, most of the conversations that was transpired between us is about human behaviour and their mindset. upbringings, unforgetable experiences and stories after stories and after stories. it's really nice and something fresh to talk about. and the personality test that he asked me to take is definitely true. like hello! High in anxiety?!!?!? yikes! haha. but one thing for sure that made me laugh was when he said, " Itu pasal, sebelum kau kahwin, lebih baik kau suruh lelaki kau ambik test nie. Bagus untuk kau" hahaha. Im sure we don't need that now because by then, the sixth sense would have been better at making good judgements.

And so, Viva la Vida, people.
LONG LIVE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!! :)

hahahaha.
okay.
amongst all the things i want to share, this one is a a
MUST MUST MUSTTTTTTTTTT-read entry on Zakk.

quote-unquote from nadi's email, "u know what to do if it ever happens :p" ohmygoddd. that was seriously damn hilariouslaaaa. and whaddayano, zak lovesssss zakk too la. here's more on zakk's comics- http://www.mmm-boogrrs.com/comics/comics.htm
so! that's Jacheceh for you. he is seriously getting more and more bimbotic day-by-day, winning the crown of the world's kental-an matt in the whole wide universe. heh.
sayang kau.
JIAYOU people!
always look on the bright side of life!
tada!tada!tada!tada!:))))))))))))))

i figured, since i've not updated my blog for a loooooooong time and i might as well post it here, rather than just FB, here is my 25!

1) when i was in primary school, i used to hate the mole on right cheek and tried all sorts of ways to get rid of it; using eraser, scraping it off with my fingernails, etc... aku gatal..haha. but now, its all over my face and you can literally play, "connect-the-dots".

2) but as i grow older, i learn to love it and little did i know, i have a really REALLY HEU-GEEE prominent mole.. ermmm somewhere above my buttcrack? sighh. haha. sometimes, when i bend down and wear a bootcut jeans/pants i have friends saying, "SOFI!!! there's a buggg somewhere near your waist!!!" haha

3) a few of my jc classmates and i call ourselves the, "buttsistas" because we literally smack each others butt in school and there was once, i thought a teacher, caught us doing that as she said,"Just now, i saw something disgraceful and disrespectful....." i was damn freaked out, because i was afraid the council name was at stake yadda.. yadda.. yaddaa.. and only to realize that it wasn't us. aku kentallll. hahaha. damn i miss those days! superfriggin fun can!

4) my dad was a discipline master and a malay teacher in my very own secondary school. hence, expectations and also, wonderful descriptions as well.my dad and i carry the name, "buncit and anak buncit" haha.damn hilarious and till today, if i bumped into any of them, they would ask, " amaciam , buncit? eh ehhh. sorry.. amaciam Cikgu Hasan??" kurang asam riteeee?haha!

5) im afraid of breaking rules. which explains why i will try my best to be early, try my best to follow every word and every letter in that rule and because of this, I can be quite a square. like my jaw-faced shape doesn't spell enough. haha.

6) anddd because of this, i can be quite gullible, AT TIMES. oh god. one gullible moment i can never ever forget was when zak and ayn paired up to play punk on me in jc, that the teacher called us because we left early for SAT class. OHMYGODDDDDDD, superkentalnakmampos kan last time???!??!?!

7) okay, FINE. two gullible moments. i believed Mark's words when he told me that Jai was a FREAKING ANGLO-AFRICAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

AAAAN LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!when actually, he is a Chindian. MARK D'SOUZA!!! hahahaha

8) i still find it very leceh to wear contact lens. hence, when i don't wear contact lens, nor spectacles, i have the tendency to wave at any tom,dick or harry whom i thought is my friend. this has happened a couple of times, so BEWARE! haha. su and isk coined it as a "sofi moment" as it happened to them before too.

9) i think funny people are smart people. sometimes is their actions, which is funny and sometimes it's just how they tell the jokes, in a non-offensive and tasty way orrr sometimes is just their personality!

10) my parents have this thing about jokes. my dad will genuinely tell really lame jokes like, "why is Buangkok named Buang-Kok" while my mum will innocently "tell a joke" by saying "eh sofi..... are you going to Starbucks to pay your bills?"

11) i wish i can turn back time and be smarter in my financial planning. moving forward, i hope my strategy works now.

12) i am actually quite a minahhh cos i think it's quite funnn siulll !!! considering that my dad is a malay teacher, i am sure he is proud that his daughter is still speaking in malayyy. haha. but butt, i still think the malay arts scene is beautiful.

13) i wish i can revive gema temasek days, but this time round as an auk-auk and not as a juara. girlsssssssssssssssss, dikir lagi ahhhhhhhhhh!

14) when i was a trainer i lost a stack of 15 cards(roomkeys). painful painful experience, but a good-learning one. learnt from it and moved on.

15) i can't teach malay dance for nutssssssssss. the last time i did, it turned out to be a DISASTERRRRRRRRRR, but an unforgettable one.i don't even know why that dude gave me that responsibility! hahahahahahahaha.

16) i am a very very emotional person and when i am, i will remedy it with a lot a lot a lot of rationality. sometimes i forget about it and it's very very dangerous :S

17) i love motivational/inspirational quotes. it makes my day more and more meaningful eventhough i'm at the lowest.

18)I also like the Ebbinghaus illusion because it’s a reminder that context is everything, and perception is relative. If you can’t figure out what you’re looking at, examine what’s around it instead. zak, you are awesome for telling me about it.

19) i love to hug and hug to love. so if you need one, i'm here! a hugging machine!:)

20) i wish all the eateries in Singapore is Halal, Subway, Carl's Junior, etc... if not, jb ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.tom. amaciam?? haha

21) chrystella and aisha never fails to inspire me always. They are really really amazinggg and their warmth, tender loving care is one of a kind. 16th SC!*hugs

22) i wish my brother speaks out more, like he used to. yes, i do have a brother.

23) i will joget-joget, gelek-gelek to the MAXXXXXXXXX , if i hear a familiar tune of hindustani song, no matter where. i did it in Thailand, in a wedding andddddddd in front of my relatives without me even realising that they recorded me in video. haha. so fun!

24) i believe in the power of believing. henceforth, i am a very optimistic person. but once negativity bites, it can be heaven or hell for me. so,you keep on believing positively okay?*hugs.

25) i secretly can't wait to have my own kids of 9845932840284302. hahaha:)

BATMANNNNNNNNNNN!!!!:)

sayang bangatttt!

the super efficient organiserrr-MONAsss.
and the orgasmic wafflesssss.

aunty din heh-py or whattt.

with Usher on the ferry.RITE.haha.

life is a holiday baby!
treasure every single second of it.
the good, the bad and the ugly.
kata, JUTAWANNN.
(millionare!)
haha.
*hugs

what do you normally think of before you sleep?

back then when i was in secondary school, almost each night before i sleep, i would conscientiously take the effort to ask myself, "what have i learned today?" i thought about what i did in the classroom and back at home. I vividly remembered the words of Ms Chia(my-then english teacher) in how she helped and encouraged me in more ways than one. This conscious effort in which i inculcated somehow made me stronger and wiser while i was panicking in the examination hall in my finals.

now, almost each night before i sleep, i would naturally ask myself, "what happened today?" sometimes i would chuckle myself in bed thinking about the lame jokes that my dad told us, ; like his own interpretations of buangkok, sometimes i would cry to sleep just thinking about the movie i just watched-'seven pounds' and sometimes i would smile in the kind gesture of that stranger who helped that blind man in the mrt. afterwhich, i would think of how lovely my family is, when we have birthday celebrations, hari raya and all sorts of wonderful gatherings. and then, i asked myself, "what will happen tomorrow?" that's when it gets scary and stormy and dark. of course we would all like to look on the bright side and think only positively. but when a dear friend of mine experienced a family tragedy last december, it never fails to haunt me till today. i cannot imagine any of the unfortunate events happening to my loved ones because they are too precious to me. it's something beyond any of our control and nothing much we can do about it. however, given a choice, its good to give something with all that we can within our control *hugs. i hope she's doing fine, as well as her family.

The movie, "seven pounds" impacted me deep because if not for that movie, i wouldn't feel this way and wailed buckets&buckets in the cinema.
Will Smith is such an awesome actor and Seven Pounds was very very impactful. I should stop crying now as tomorrow brings a new day and new breathe of fresh air.*hugs

yesterday,when zak called me,he GENUINELY asked,

" are you still worried about the world?"

kurangHASAM punyer budakkkk. yes yes, i don't deny i was seriously over-reacting about the whole issue. you can only imagine how freaking EMOTIONAL and INSANE i was over the last weekend when i read the news online, especially how different the two countries potrayed about the recent developments. i had thoughts of becoming a soldierrrr and thoughts of even becoming a doctorrrr to help the innocent victims. i didn't know what was going through my mind but i knew i was emotionally involved in the crisis. pretty funny though, when i tried to picture myself as a superwoman, flying 859385934593km to Gaza and trying to save the world!haha. my imagination was going wild and out about everything and anything. but after talking to my colleague, she said this line and it made me have a peace of mind.

"anything that is good or bad, do NOT let it affect you for more than 30 seconds"

somehow or rather, i felt at ease and was able to focus on the necessary. no doubt it only contains 17 words but that very 17 words was probably one of the many many best medication to my emotional well-being. funny how these words are just words, but people can be so affected by it. it's not as though it's a punch or an atomic bomb but i guess it's really how much"vitamins" we read and internalize everyday and keep us emotionally healthy. i know fo-SHO i am going to need truckloads and truckloads of it, and of course, lotsa lotsa of fun,love and happiness.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :)

hello beautiful world! peace?

if only the solutions to ANY problems in this universe is as easy.

love everyone
learn from own or other people's mistakes
and
make it right.

seriously, eversince the mumbai bombings and the attacks at Gaza, i have somehow been emotionally involved in all this. i don't remember the same feeling when i was a student a year back where my focus in life is to do well in school. but now, with more responsibilities in life, everything that's happening around the world is affecting me and it's really scary. it doesn't help the fact that many of those who suffered are young children. young INNOCENT children.many times i question myself, why why why do conflicts have to happen? is it so hard to reach an agreement and stick by it? is it so hard to be patient and be appreciative to what we have? is it so hard to do good? the only thing we can do is control the controllables. one, is our emotions, two, is our rationality and three, our actions. so, put it to good use and continue to spread the love, generously.*hugs.

looking back, there are so so many things i want to pen down about 2008. overall,it had been a really REALLY "challenging-blessed" year for me.i never thought i can overcome my fear and worries and i never thought that the positive-impossible things can really happen. there are so many discoveries that i made about myself and many more things about life i learned from others. though those challenging moments were stressful and nail-biting, it was fun to go through it.maybe because its a novelty, maybe because its simply challenging my capabilities, but whatever reason it is, it excites me to learn more. but none of these could have happened without the support. support from my own constant positive-mind attitude and support from family members, friends and strangers alike. *hugs

Happy 2009 Hunny-bunnies and this is my favourite wish i received and would love to share it with you;

life is short,
break the rules,
forgive and forget quickly,
love truly,
laugh uncontrollably
and
never regret anything that made you smile.

Have a FANTASTIC 2009, everymonth, everyday,everyhour,everyminute,everysecond.