Thursday, April 27, 2006

and it's a baby boy!
just look at the genuine smiles of a happy happy family! :)

and they are one of those; close to my heart. <3


welcome to the world lil' nephew!!! :):):)

you are such a joy in our family. the best part is, you look more to your mummy's side of the family instead of your daddy's! but, its too early to say for now. haha. i have every reason to look forward to each time i wake up:) and zikry, you are still as cute as ever. both zikry and his lil brother will no doubt bring down the house each time. and my sister is one tough babe. salutes to sister ernie! and so, these few weeks, sofi is associated with the bee. so, sorry if i can't make it to any meet-ups or shopping trips -wails- but as soon as exams are over, i'll promise you a helluva time of fun and laughter.*huggggsss*
and su huney, thanks for visiting my sister. *drumrolls* i'm sure someone looks forward to go to school each day now huh? why not?dumdeedumdeedum! surprise surprise.

note: his name have yet to be given. so yup yup. will update once i know:) but, please rememember 25th april 2006. the day he was born! *laughs*




why is it, that after so long, i still have a heart?
that beats with you and just persistently won't go away?

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Happy 20th Birthday Twin! *laughs*
sidetrack: i don't think its obvious in the pic, i cut my hair and i look like crap. oh wells, probably will do something to it after exams! :)

23rd april 06. tatia's 20th birthday; after 14 years of friendship and still counting. *fingers tightly crossed* amazing isn't it?

well, i spent a short and sweet one and a half hours of her advanced birthday celebration at tamps just now. nothing humongous. no birthday cake. no candles. no flowers. just the two of us:) but... come later, i was a 'genie' and granted what she wanted. i know it ain't surprise. but hope she likes the present-s though. *laughs*

and alecia lim yan rong, i'm going to skin you alive! haha. i soooo regret rejecting your invitation last thurs at zouk for some mtv asia award thingey. i missed a golden opportunity to see colby, utt, etc and having a ball of a time there. -sigh- yes dearie, i regret not going for it. so, are u happy now? haha. was obliged to do something and i can't possibly not go for it rite? stresssssss.examinations.tuition.student's exams.sister.stresssssss but, friday was a good catch up with alecia.her never-ending stories of her bee-z life. studying with cheng hui and alecia was damn damn solid.thank you cheng hui. enlightenment:)

Friday, April 21, 2006

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that
I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But
You sing to me over and over and over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray
to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope
Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that
You have for me over again
I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back
but you always believe in me...

Thursday, April 20, 2006

***wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee***

:) :) :)

mom just told me a super good news about my sister today. monday. 37th week.

the moment i heard that, i was like new baby boy!!!nursery!!!! kk!!! funny thing is that, it was supposed to be on the 15th of may. but, my sister went for a scan just now and it showed that the baby was playing with the umbilical cord and all ready to face the world! wonderful surprise isn't it?well, i wonder what is she going to name her new born baby. hmm.. but oh wells, don't i just lurve surprises!!( pleasant ones i mean)

thank god, i covered quite a bit on my studies for the past few days. but, practice makes perfect. so, it's time to bite the bullet!

and did i say that family outings rocks big time? i just lurve it man. each time we meet up its like the first day of hari raya( minus the green packets. duh-uh. haha.) be it my mum's side or daddy's side. the funny jokes we shared, be it with the old generation or among the cousins ourselves, latest updates and etc. and, the best part of it all, i'm going to see them soon next week when my sister gives birth! so exciting!

there are so many wonderful things to look forward to,
my sis's new baby boy, my brother's wedding( june 07), my cousin-s wedding( may, sept and dec 06), kak jij's new baby(sept 06) and many many more! and, there shouldn't be any reason why i should be upset, rite?

so,

keep on smiling, baby. i'll be here.




and there is always something special waiting for us. precious.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

*aaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

mood meter: negative one million :(

Sunday, April 16, 2006

and no.... that's not my new specs. but, yeap. can't wait for my new specs to be ready.
we wuv taking multiple shots. cos, we can laugh and laugh till the cows go home!
azim, dun try to act cool can? you also cacat dot k! =P
so......far ( go figure!)
stressbusters for the day! :)

i needed these stress-busters after i was mentally drained from stats at tamps library.
well, hazelnut mocha frap did help a lil(though i hate coffee but i have no choice*puke*). but nevertheless,
thank you guys!
especially wazzy :)
can't wait for many many more fun days with many many people in many many more days to come :(
thanks to my upcoming examinations.

oh ya!!! i made a new pair of specs. i hate to strain my eyes each time i cant see words or people from afar. i had enough of embarassing moments when i said "HI!!!" to the person whom i "envisioned" and turned out to be someone else. grrr.... but then again. no matter how nice the specs is, i still dun wanna use it. haha*slap me* contact lens? nah.. too troublesome. haha. oh wells.

ok, that was yesterday.

today, was the celebration of maulidurasul s.a.w at the mosque today. and guess who i met? *drumrolls*........ i met sharf!!! ghee.. it's reallie a small world afterall huh? it was reallie nice to see you girl! after my exams, i don't care. we must meet k. update update and talk talk k! and pat, you owe me an explaination -laughs- why? you go and figure out why! * sofi step agreh* ( jus kidding.. miss you!)

and so it is....

Friday, April 14, 2006

i wish i could do something to make it better.

but,

i guess i was the root of it all...

i'm sorry...
hello beautiful universe!!!
haha. well, it's been awhile huh? let's just say never never land was never never what i expected:) i have sooo many things i have to say that i don't even know where to begin with! well, let's start with

1) studies.

got back my mock papers. and all i have to say is, *pure luck* especially econs which i never expected, when i answered only a few questions. but, i must not be complacent and work even harder this time round. soci, though it was just an average result, comments made were very encouraging. so, that's an extrinsic motivation:) and the rest, malvin!!! ian!!! agnes!!! or whoever i can clarify my doubts with. or else, i will go bonkers in no time.thankfully, all in all, im progressing, but gradually. i need to have a catalyst to speed up my thinking process. any ideas? probably cracking my brains and replacing it with einstein would help.hmmm.

well, i've not much time left, but, i shall not let unnecesary stuffs let it affect me at all cos, sad to say, it did affect me in my mocks. -sigh- i can't walk backwards can i? so.... the mirage is finally coming to an end sofi! jiayou sofi and to rest of people sitting for exams!

2) friends in school.

i love the fact that they reshuffled the timetable for the revision lectures cos i get to meet more people and hence, more frens *wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee* and guess what? finally, for the past one year, i've finally found a good malay fren in school !!! andie, you are sooooo going to make my life in sim lively-ier. :) malvin, your brains are equivalent to Karl Marx or Max Weber. aimin, don't we just LOVE amos witzum? love you babe! study date:SOON. and ian & company. you guys are great! trips to school will never be a bore anymore. thank god u guys stay in the east:) and alecia, kat,quincy,julie etc... jiayou!!!

3) friends everywhere

it's an understatement that i miss you guys. but, i've got to do what i've go to do. however, you guys will never be forgotten :) sooon k. SOOOOOOOOON!

4) su and the butt sisters!

no doubt i was touched by your story, su and the fact that you publicised your improvements on social skills in my testimonials.haha. for that, i thank you,love. but, little did you know that one thing that hit me hard was when you and the rest of the butt sisters came all the way to my place from the furthest of places one fine day just to comfort me. and that, was just unbelievable. i swear i will never trade anyone or anything with you guys. cos, during the darkest period, you guys have sacrificed time, money and everything, just to console me over some bloody person. and on that fateful day, i remembered bari'ah rushing from yishun to tamps and took a cab. su,kana and sha came all the way down to tamps from school. and seetal who miraculously bring me back to reality and surfaced the truth bout everything over the phone. and me, wailing, feelin all so emotional and touched at the same time cos they really tried their best to make me happy. the bouquet of flowers, chocalates and encouraging words and everthing. and this goes the same for wazzy ayn tatia teresa etc(you know who you are)... boy! that happened last year and guess what? i remembered every single event vividly.*thanks guys* and so, maybe, what they say is true,

the SIMPLEST gestures show the GREATEST love.

*a GREAT BIG HUGGGGGGGGGG*

5) me
---------------NOVEMBER BABY --------------------
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times.Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outerbeauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Standsout in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month.
got this calender baby thing from nadi and... hmmmm.. its true isn't it? well, not all of it. but yeah most of it. especially the last line *ahem ahem* what do you think? haha.
hmm, i know this is my ten millionth time saying this, but life is a learing journey. and each day, i think i begin to know myself better and forgive myself for what ive done and at the same time, learn and learn and learn from mistakes, experiences and everything else. for instance, regarding studies, i always have a zillion and one qns to ask about a certain concept. usually, i would 'give up' and stop asking when they say that i'm thinking too much. but now, i'd give my two cents worth and let them hear me so that the matter will be at rest rather than hanging. and regarding my weakness, i'd work on it. in fact, i am. now i know.i really really know.so, tell me. what do you know? hmmm...

Monday, April 10, 2006

something to ponder and reflect.....

I've learned-that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I've learned-that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned-that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I've learned- that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned-that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned-that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned - that you can keep going long after you can't.

I've learned-that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned- that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned-that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I've learned-that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done ,regardless of the consequences.

I've learned-that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned-that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned-sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I've learned-that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned-that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned-that maturity has more to do with what types of experience you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I've learned-that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned-that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned-that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned-that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned-that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I've learned-that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I've learned-that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I've learned-that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you,you will find the strength to help.

I've learned-that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I've learned-that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

L i f e .
a simple four-letter word with a million and one definitions.
how do i view it?
beautiful :)
with lots of love,
-SoFi-

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

i am exhausted.

mentally.physically.sociologically.economically.business-mangemently(no such word.but the idea is there).mathematically and statistically.and everythingly.

so,

killme.slapme.stabme.nownownow

or

bring me to never never land, please?

brain dead.

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Tuesday, April 04, 2006

dr. porntipa wong, you are the best of the bestest.
simple.sweet.straight to the point, and me? very very very satisfied. sociology rocks big time :) :) :)
all hail dr. porntipa wong !!!

anyways, i don't know whether to laugh or be angry or smile happily regarding a certain issue i heard from my friend yesterday.

why i burst out laughing when i first heard it.

"out of all the 18597896154516, she was the best ......."
"wish she was of the same race and religion and nothing could go wrong......"
" i really fell for her......."
yadadadadada. well, are you trying to wriggle your way through now to portray that you are the good guy after all the horri-terrible things that you did??? tsk tsk, shame on you mr-manipulative-alphabetic-insincere-cunning-player. and guess what? i DIDN'T fall for it.

why i should be really angry.

throughout the whole entire thing, i never avoided the main sensitive issue and you dare say that i dodge from it? in fact, i was the one who was very concerned about it and you have the oh-be-cool-about-it-and-go-with-the-flow kinda attitude. two words: TRY HARDER

why i should be smiling from ear to ear.

i think, after all the dram- mama, i think i should look at the bright side of it. the fact that he's finally realizing and admitting that he was( or still is) a total jerk and guilty about it...
well, maybe it is true that boys do become men after ns. hmm...*laughs*( just kidding. but this statement is very subjective. it can be true and it can be false)
but then again, a leopard will never change its spot. however, it depends on the situation i guess :)

all in all, i just wanna say THANK YOU.
thank you for teaching me a very valueable lesson in life.
thank you for making me realize that there are manipulative people out there.
thank you for definitely making me a stronger and a much wiser person. :)

whether you are the same cunning person i know, or not, i really wish you all the best in your future endeavours. good luck.

There's no escape from it
Once a gentle breeze
Weaves it's spell upon your heart
lost in the rhythm - so right
You can try to resist
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight

Monday, April 03, 2006

guess what? here's what my horoscope said about me today:

You love to lavish your loved ones with gifts.
'Hey -- if you've got it, why not share it?' is your attitude.
While your generosity is laudable, make sure that a certain someone isn't taking advantage of you.

hmm... how true is that? well, it's not for me to judge. but seriously, i think that is one of my major weaknesses. toooooooo much of giving till i'm the one suffering in the long run. i always have a problem, when to give and when to take. people who knows me well enough(chrystella, aisha, ayn and wazzy etc..) are very aware of it. sometimes i am even oblivious to the fact that i gave tooooo much. hmmmm... well, i guess past experiences have reallie taught me to stand up for my own rights, but even then, i still fall sometimes. badly. i guess i couldn't help being myself, but, i'm more wary and skeptical now. so, yeap. wiser( i hope) haha. till then, happy studying sofi( yeah rite=P)



The little things make the biggest difference.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

if there is one thing that you should know about me, i HATE being late. yes. i HATE it. even if it's for 5 mins or 50 mins. i HATE being late. *laughs* call me a kiasu or whatever, but i'd rather be early then to suffer the adverse consequences. thanks to council i guess. haha.

talking about being late, i was late for nageb's lecture!!! so, ian and jinghui reserved a seat for me. but know what? out of all places, they just have to sit right smack in front of him! seriously, i wouldn't mind sitting in front, but the fact that i was late and his menacing eyes will just arrow at me for questions. and so, i played safe, entered the lt like a mouse and left with no choice but to sit at the back alone. pathetic, but fun! because.... i made a new friend! * wheeee* and boy, is he smart. he really cleared most of my doubts during my blur moments in ibm and he introduced me to his other friends. quite enlightening i must say. so, it was a blessing in disguise to be late, huh? sometimes. thanks new friend! haha.

well...i'm still contemplating whether i should go to school to study with them tom, because

firstly, school is at the other side of the world
secondly, i live at the other end of the world
thirdly, my relatives will most probably be at the mosque tom night and i don't wanna miss it.
fourthly, i really need to clear my doubts for ibm and soci especially.
lastly, it's a sunday and the next day i have school from morning till very late afternoon followed by tuition.

how? how? how? well.. we shall see how it goes tom then:)

exam stress is steamrolling into me and i can just feel it. so many readings to do and many nights spent on burning the midnight oil. -urgh-, and the fact that i have to lessen my social life with my loved ones to be discipline is just so so so sucky. and the fact i feel so bad for not joining the sr people at sentosa today due to my own scheduled timetable just suck to the core! -wails- 25th may 2005 marks the day of freedom. but guess what sofi, you are just marooning in year one. you still have two more years to go. so, *slap me* haha.



i'm a cool cat. ( i think)