you obviously think your SMART actions are hilariously funny.
to humiliate and roar it out loud.
to shout PAY ATTENTION when it was just an innocent question.
go ahead, CLAP your hands and laugh out loud!
i doubt so this is visible to you
but really, there is a thin line between a joke and humiliation.
when being confronted they will go to the extremes.
not an apology, but saying "ya ya, you are always right"
or give us that straight look and say "whatever... you are just too much"
not expecting anything from you.
but being indifferent does hurt too.
it does help if you think before you talk
for the simple fact that Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus.

before i say anything, let's just believe that kids are really innocent humble beings AND all evil and satanic creatures are being locked up in their prison for the holy month of ramadhan.

i may be comforting myself, my mum and my sis, but, sometimes, zikry's "third" vision can be of a rational fear, indeed. remember the last few entries about zikry seeing things and intrepreting them in a cute, but quite scary way? it happened again. today. but this time round he described it in a more detailed manner. and it suits the location, time and errr.. everything else. on the way to go for buka @ town with his family(excluding me) around 6-ish, he spotted the chinese red container meant for the burning at the void deck. suddenly, out of the blue, he pointed at it and shouted "mama! mama! there's an alien hiding behind! run! run!" my sis knowing that he possesed such special capabilties, confronted the situation in a rational way along with agama, saying things like, "they are just making funny faces: it's ramadhan, and all the satan will be locked up" i'm not sure how well it worked, but the thought of just gives me cold shivers. i'm reiterating this point again, it's ramadhan, less evil around round? someone please tell me that zikry watches too much cartoons lately?? the whole time my mum was going " subhanallah..." well, zikry is sure a special kid to me and everyone else. hopefully, insyallah nothing dramatic will happen.

anyway, now that ramadhan is here, mum is more stringent on house rules and whatever rules that she implements then and there, suddenly. yes suddenly. for the simple fact that, sometimes, i don't even understand what she's even angry at. and when she's furious, she's a tigeress and you wouldn't want to pat it. so, just to play safe, i have to rush home each day from wherever if there is no school, tuition or driving
:((( hopefully, things will ease off sooner or later. but till then, cheers to household chores, studying, babysitting. yessssssssssssss!!!! :S

*su, yes. 4th oct rite? insyallah i can make it. cos my mum is quite unpredictable. hopefully locking myself up in a dungeon and do wonders will sway her vote to yes.*

and i'm sooooooooooooo in love with ESAP. i used to get this a lot from my friends " sofi.. i think you think tooo much... chill... it will just make the matter more complicated" and you know whattt? whatever i was over-thinking(haha.) is related to cognitive dissonance theory. haha. psychology, social psychology is sooo much fun. though the lecturer can be quite mundane at times, thank god i have M.J Townson(i don't even know how she looks like forgodsakes. haha!) to fallback on.and you know what my lecturer told me? psychology is a very complex subject and you need a lot of undersanding in pursuing it. so, when you are "over-thinking" don't hold back, let the creative juices flow because it is meant to be Complicated. haha! oh wells.

anyway, wazzy! guess what? i was just telling my cousin about how torn apart you were in choosing among 3 people, while me and farah were playing the see-saw game.i said " no la, no la, you go... you message ppl tt he is gg to sing your fav song" and farah will go " ehhh.. she said she wants to marry Hady!!" haha. then you know what my cousin said? her friend was experiencing the SAME PROB and she GAVE UP THE TWO TICKS away too!!! *laughs. well, that shows two things, wazzy you are ze best( as usual!haha!) and this world is made up of incredibly nice and warm people. well, for my world at least.

so who will be crowned singapore idol?? hopefully, the favourite one! but eventhough he didn't make it, the other, is also one of them in my world. nice and warm. i like. both. haha.

okie gtg now. lotsa lotsa readings to do:(((

salam!

passed the FTT. so what's next? P.R.A.C.T.I.C.A.L. *screamssssss. trust me, it's not easy but its goddammfun. throughout the whole practical last wed, i was chanting, "less time travelled to school, more freedom,less time travelled to school, more freedom" and psycho-ing of course. but but but it doesn't change the fact that i get all so jittery controlling the car. so, more practice needed. and i need sheer help! haha.

anyway, the tj girls met yesterday @ simpang bedok for dinner and it was great! such a waste that ili, sal and lyd can't make it. but it was nice meeting them again after like a year?? or so? haha. all i could remember was that i miss dikir and gematemasek03. i was imagining hafi going "chak chak chak oi!!!" haha. those were the days man. and hafi e diehardfantic of Oasis was updating me about her oasis concert and her theory of " $16 a year for the concert because i have been a fan of oasis eversince 1996" haha. and nat and me cam-whoring as usual. they just rock my socks la.


the lovahhhh for the night. haha.








and what do you know? it's not a tj girls outing. it's the tj girls and a boy outing. haha! met taha there too. and O.M.G. i think all his fats were passed to me man. he is as skinny as a stick now! i could hardly recognise him when he waved to us from afar.( minus the fact that i have badeyesight.haha!)really really.



haha. this is a very loong over-dued entry actually. but whatthell? i had sooooo much fun @ dance ensemble, last saturday. yes. last saturday.haha. but actually, the company was 93275094759043 times better. and unknowingly, we had our own "little drama cum dance ensemble" ourselves. watching su crying her heart out when she found out one of the hearthrobbing dancers is actually attached. and i had to walk as though i had only one leg because of my freakingsandal. and is, was just being is as usual. and raz is such a good dancer! i can never do those kind of moves in a million years. but he did it! had an enjoyable time there. and can't wait to see them again.

and oh oh! do you know tt IS is a parents,sister and brother magnet? haha. yes he is! forgodknowswhatreason, but my sis loves him! haha.

the amazing race season 10 is finally back on AXN, which simply means, stay-home monday nights. and this time round, it's twice the fun as there are more Asians and Arabs in the race. but sadly, 2 of the Asians teams were eliminated from the race due to 'surprise' elimination point along the race and the finishing line, of course. and as usual, a reality tv show would never be complete without controversies such as a gay team and a disabled person. but watching Sarah( the amputee)scaling the Great Wall of China brought me to tears. Though it was difficult for me to watch, she slowly and methodically began her ascent up the wall with only one good leg. it's just amazing and inspiring to see an amputee pulling through such a challenging task. but, it would have been impossible without Peter's(her partner) coaching and sheer encouragement.i'm so proud of them.

this is why i love amazing race.
this is where i learn valuable lifeskills
this is where i see with my own two eyes that nothing is impossible.

given the opportunity, i wouldn't mind joining the race. probably wih my brother.
yes. with one of the most difficult person on earth. just to see if we break it or make it. but seriously, i would do almost anything just to bring back the loving brother that i knew back then...

if only.

lalalalalala.*skipping around*

okie i'm nuts. but then again, what's new? haha. anyway, todayy todayy todayy was such a celebration. actually, it's just the summation of happy events that happened a few days ago and i decided that i'm in the right mood to blog bout it! but first things first. just a few mins ago, my cousin who got married in late dec last year just gave birth to a baby boy!! and and he is another danish baby. no no wazzy, not as in you brother's-weight danish(which is suuupperrr cute) but they share the same name!!! haha.

secondly, school started officially. which means two things. stress and more stress. okie fine that's same thing. butt buttt, its really nice to be back in school and to meet wonderful friends again. and hopefully, i have at least one friend for each lect. thank god nita was there for OT. and agnes and sinping for ESAP and mudd and andie for ME!!!*wheee.. but i'm still alone for accounts though:( so how mudd? wanna take accounts again this year? *laughs.

thirdly, my dear primary school friend, nuraidah just got engaged on sunday!!! yes tatia, ulfah and whoever are my primary school friends, she just got engaged, finally.haha. i wanted to put up the pics but i ran into some problems with the USB wire of my phone. how irri-noying. but yeah. i'm happy for her!

fourthly, last sunday was the best photoshoot that ATNM ever had. *laughs. roite. i meant shahirah's MacBook which is super hot and super sleek. the iphotobooth captures pictures with many many many effects.



and we spent a good 10 mins laughing heartily at it till one of the staffs at starbucks had to "chase" us away.

and then, we girls, secretly bought azim's last-min birthday cake where the 9 of us minus aizat dig in.



well, it was all good clean fun, and i must say that it was a great start to my new semester minus the turbulences that happened. and thank you god for giving me such a wonderful family and a great circle of friends:) alhamdulilah

and that's fasting month is drawing near, it's all good and hopefully, refrain from the bad:)))insyallah.



and as usual,
sofi has always loved you and will always love you. MUCH MOOOREEE. haha:))

*hugsss

I'm feeling quite eeeeeeeeeeeeeee-ky now. but i'm not quite sure why. the thought of it gives me negative goosebumps and its utterlyhorriterriblygrosslydisgusting.
and to think that i was once part of it, made it worse.

and su, trust me, you are not the only person who is BREATHING THE SAME AIR.
i'm suffering too.
indirectly.
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

whatthefuckwasithinkingbackthenman.eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

reallyreally

yucks!!!

I believe the children are our are future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be
Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone who fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
So I learned to depend on me

I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I'll live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be


And if by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love

coffee cheesecake, sweet pleasure, strawberry shortcake, strawberrylavendersoda, ben and jerry's phish food and vanilla fried mars bars.

and its all oh-so-sweeeeet-but-sinful-very-sinful pleasures on a friday night with these babes! had a great time with lydia and ili for a desert feast and we are already planning for the next trip of sweet indulgence @ old SMU! not sure where is it though but i trust their taste!:))



well, talking bout sweeetnees. i think my eyes has its candy too:))
and i think i wanna make an effort to watch hikmah now *laughs*
hmmm...

do you believe that kids possessed the "third eye" and able to see the "other side of the world, before they reach a certain age?

if yes, you are really freaking me out.

well, i think all of us are gifted in many ways. some may be extra-ordinary in sports, while some are just goddamn good in anything. but please please save me from the twilight zone because little Zikry has extraordinary visions too:(( Last Saturday, my sis and zik went to her friend's place to collect some stuffs. As they were leaving the place, he said " mama, i saw a barbie doll behind you. big big eyes and big big barbie doll" my sis played it cool and quickly diverted his attention elsewhere. that was the first encounter- without me.*phew!

the second one, was just a few hours ago; with me:(((. we were in the car about to enter Scotts parking when Zik suddenly screamed, " I don't want to go restaurant! I don't want to go!!! There is a triangle. Yellow in colour. " and he went on and on about it for 15 mins or so until the food came and he started eating.

tell me i'm paranoid because i have always been one. but then again, how can we tell when they are telling the truth or it was just a mere imagination of a 4 year-old child? or even a 4 month- old baby staring at a point for a long time and abruptly, wails? i just cannot fathom these things. and trust me, i don't want to. simply because i admit that i'm the most scarrycat person in the whole universe, right su? sharf? nadi? and if that ever happens to me, i bid you farewell first because i will either hyperventilate in the hospital. hoefully not. as what my sis always says "Allah will protect us no matter what" Insya'allah...

anyway, on a lighter not, i think psycho-ing helps. a lot. or to put it nicely, faith.hope.love. well, remember the last time how i used to rant on and on about how i hate maths? well, apparently, my year 1 results showed that i love it due to me subconsciously and consciously loving it! haha. so people of the universe, just never give up and most importantly, enjoy what you are doing. hopefully, you will begin to like it and succeed!:)

and daddy is just so adorable, he is watching brother bear 2 alone downstairs instead of his usual action flick late night dvd movies. hahaha. oh wells, sadly join him because i have school tommorrow. but im looking forward to the 15th of Sept! raz is dancing and the best part is, rahman,su and isk will be there! how fun! ooooooooo can't wait!

oh oh ! and azim, happy 20th birhtday! may you stay youthful each day! *laughs. just kidding bro!

toooodles~~~~