urgh. the belacan bacin smell still lingers on me now and seriously, its not sexy at all(humming to the tune Big girls don't cry by Fergie). i guess its still stuck to my nostrils despite digging it out a million times in the bathroom just now. i watched blindside only because of the hot momma Sandra Bullock. I've always liked her eversince Miss Congeniality as she sings, "You think I'm gorgeoussss, You wanna date meeeee, You wanna loveeee me" Yikes! And she must possess some skills to win the best in the academy awards and worst in the razzie all in the same year. but oh wells, i need to look into these celebrities a little bit deeper now. Oprah, Ellen, Sandra and all that. Not because i am inspired to be an actress, more of their many random acts of kindness(R.A.K) How Ellen generously gives IPOD aways to audiences like free PADs(the ones we see in magazines) and Oprah having such a huge heart for the minorities of the world.

so, tomorrow, about running my own show. i know it can be done. to think that i have yet to put a finger on it and start practicing, but she told me to just chillax and do it from the heart. And i think that is essentially the point. no point writing thousands of scripts, correcting the grammar, using bombastic vocab, because what matters the most is the inside. so, i know, i have Oprah, Ellen and Sandra by my side to look at just in case of a panic attack. but seriously, i think i am better at dealing with those attacks already. now, gotta start rehearse and let the show begin!

Be more splendid, more extraordinary. Use every moment to fill yourself up - Oprah Winfrey.

Kind of reminded me of Su awesome and Sofi awesome motto: WE WANT MOREEE! Iloveyoubabysu!