if quater-life crisis is what i am experiencing RIGHT NOW, get me out of it quick. i hate the fact that i think about the same issues in my mind over and over again. i hate the fact that i can only rant and do nothing about it. i hate the fact that i thought i have done everything and anything and still nothing comes out of it. i hate the fact that it is the same reason and explanation and thus, same consequences. i hate the fact that i want to end it soon but it takes time. i hate the fact that sometimes when i lose my patience, i cry and cry and cry, like there's no tommorrow.

i hate it.

but, maybe i haven done everything and anything that i THOUGHT i have done. maybe there is something ELSE that i can do about it. maybe there are OTHER reasons and thus, other consequences. maybe it REALLY takes TIME to put an end to the misery. maybe i SHOULD be a little bit more patient and STOP crying.

maybe.

because eventhough there is no certainty to it, there is always a possibility.

stay POSITIVE sofi.
stay, POSITIVE.

about 24 hours ago, i thought i lost the inspiration to blog. but come 24 hours later, a million and one things started pouring into my mind as though i have so much to tell. (read: AS THOUGH) lol. firstly, i want to go for another holiday. bring me to bali, thailand or malaysia and i would love you more than i love my imaginary fat cat. ayn's going to bali just nice before ramadhan starts AND after shouting on TOP OF HER LUNGS and said, "eh sofi! you want me to buy me dress or not from bali" under my void deck, i SERIOUSLY WANT TO GO BALI LIKE NOWWWW AHHHH. so kodoks, kataks, kambings, or whoever please please go and plan in advance:) sayang kauu. haha. secondly, i love heels. i love the fact that i feel a little more confident than before, with my babat face and walk down the street and feel taller than zak. yes, zak is THAT short:p besides the fact that i took 6 looooooooong hours to find 2 pair of heels so that i can psychologically feel that i am a professional working adult, I LOVE MY HEELS. thirdly, my korean tuition kids are AMAZING. honestly, i feel that i was part of the korean drama when they talked to each other in their language. it was so SURREAL. ARASSO! lastly, ramadhan is coming and i couldn't be happier so that my imaginary fat cat and i can do our part to save the earth by eating less! isn't that amazingggg? can't wait! so let's be patient and have faith that things are going to be good, no matter what happens:)

haha. i am being realistic, rite? LOL.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

oh happy days and more to come:)

1) level camp@labrador with 18 coaches and herding 20 kids is not bad as it seems:)

considering the fact that the kids are really enthusiastic, caringgggg (till the point that they care too much about my personal life and wants me to be with coach zak, and not zak. *slaps forehead*LOL!) and very manjaaaaaaaaaaa la!
su octopus to entertain anyone, anytime, anywhere.

omgggggggg. especially when the coaches played our own ice-breaker games.

you have to watch syirin and abul play the ice-breaker games with the rest. you will die laughing.

my favourite!

pap-parap-parap-pap-pap.

TOINK!
damn fun! the more aggresive, the BETTER! haha.

where the kids sabo-ed sham, syirin and me. su got away from sham so quickly. damn it!

dog and bone game.

coach sham: all the even numbers! go to coach abul and hug him!

LOL. it was damn chaotic and i don't know how abul got away faster when that IDIOT did the same thing to me.HAHA.

but the best wwas on the last NIGHT of the camp, mindless coach sham,abul,syirin,su,zak and myself went to geylang,ecp and sentosa and stayed in the car. laughed at each others antics every single second with eyes closed. no idea how we did it, but OHMYGOD, korang GEREK NAK MAMPOS LAAA! haha.

more more more!

2) KL trip with sister's family and friends was errr.... unexpectedly, motivational and emotional. haha. love every single second of it. with redha and zikry to hug,kiss and bully. HAHA. all the kakaks to talk about LIFE:)
my hensem redha.
met nad!!!!! so heh-py
and go sogo@masjid india k. the deals are really good! and that HULK THING that zikry puts on weighs heavier than me ahhhhh. so cute la zik.

3) Om hakim's 23rd birthday surprise. too bad we didn't record hakim's nonsensical actions from town all the way to amirah's grill! super funny i tell you! walk ter-kedek-kedek with butt sticking out all.

om mad irritating nak mampos with his teeth like that. and i miss you la om-s and bibik!
4) min min farewell's party@mos, where i was there for 20 mins, before mother sang the ULTIMATE music. haha
minminiminimin. have a safe trip and we are going to miss you!
while you! stop smiling and START snoring! LOL. haha. can't believe coach abul actually recorded him snoring at night for a good 30 secs. kesian dier tau.haha.

oh happy days! MORE MORE MORE!:)

I got a pocket,

Got a pocket full of sunshine

I got a love and I know that it's all mine

Oh, oh, oh

Do what you want, But you never gonna break me,

Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me

Wish that you could,

but you ain't gonna owe me

Do anything you want, you can't slow me down

Oh, oh, oh

Take me away

A secret place

A sweet escape

Take me away

Take me away

To better days

Take me away

A hiding place

There's a place that I go

Where nobody knows

Where the rivers flow

And I call it home

And there's no more lies

And darkness is light

And nobody cries

The sun's on my side

Take me for a ride

I smile up to the sky

I know I'll be alright

The sun's on my side

Take me for a ride

I smile up to the sky

I know I'll be alright

<3