everyone is zikry's friend.

and i'm not kidding. went to the mosque cos there was maulid and, as usual, i have to be the one running after him and calming him down and say" zikry, shhh.... you are in the mosque, don't get overly excited" yes, he is loud. yes, he is super friendly( cos he will just go up to anyone and say hellooooooooooooooo!!!!!!). and yes, he can be over-friendly till he scares some kid away *laughs* poor baby boy. but, for a 3 year-old kid, i think he is really special cos he brightens up my day in my foul-est mood ever. wonderful isn't it?

anyways, saw a few familiar faces at the mosque today, but i didn't really talk to them much because i was too preoccupied looking after the lil' one. so, hoping to see my other friends there in the next few days of the maulid. but the best part is, my relatives will be there too on the weekends. so, *yippiee* and yes, i reallie found solace in reciting the selawat, together with everyone in the mosque. it makes me feel at ease and i'll be looking forward to the next few days:)

and wazzy, can i adopt your baby bro? can i? please? pretty please?*laughs* he is so so so cute and definitely irresistable. i wish i could stay at your place longer and play with him. -sigh- next time ok?



I'm a twisted angel
Flying wild and free
I'm a twisted angel
Flying to heaven on a broken wing

who am i again?

i think i'm suffering from schizophrenia. one second i can be euphoric, the next minute i'm down below. one moment i can be furiously burning, the next moment i am super-dee-duper cool. but beneath these surge of emotions, lies a soft landing.

well, life is a roller-coaster for me now. but, what the heck. it's still a thrill ride isn't it? so, enjoy it sofi :) *yippie!*

ticktockticktockticktock.

to *you*,

i'm sooooooooooooo (times infinity) happy for *you*! really really. *you* somehow make me believe that miracles do come true. and for that, *you* strenghten me and believe that faith, hope will turn into reality if you give time and hold on to it really strongly. yes, reality is your bestfriend. and if something better in all aspects comes along the way, *you* say, "why not?" hmmm... maybe i'm a super optimistic person which is very dangerous. but who cares? i'm happier that way. and if nothing happens, i put on a big fat smile and say "GOD IS GREAT" *wheeeeeeeeeeee* and oh yes, i love *you* so much like i've always been! so, quick! call me! *laughs*


always look on the bright side of life. ta da! ta da! ta da ta da! :) :) :)

the bestest funniest combo anyone can ever find
the giant and the two dwarfs
the clown.
dear tatia,
ecstasy. crazy omar.

spastic aizat

smiles, sanely :)

it was quite an eventful day yesterday cos i met up with sal to study econs and at the same time, had pure fun! well, one thing for sure, we both lifted a heavy burden off each other. i don't know why or how, but its seems like we both discovered that the way we think, do, act are so similar in many ways. surprise me. but oh wells, probably it's just a co-incidence.
anyways sal, aren't we glad that we graduated from harvardschoolofeq and attain a phd in it? im sure we are proud of that rite babe? *smiles* can't wait to see you again!

after meeting up with her, aizat called up to meet up with the usual people and
up till now, when i look at the pics i can't help it but to laugh over and over and over again. seriously man, the combo of aizat and omar is just sooooo funnily craaaazzzzeeeeeeee. *laughs* i don't know how to describe it, but reallie reallie, with their supergenuinelyfunny antics, you can laugh your heart out continously. you guys are really great man. and aizat, i think you should really consider psychology or counselling as a career(eventhough i think your craziness would mean the otherwise). but thanks for the analogies and goddamnfunny jokes and everything. :) *yipppppiiiieeee*



sincere actions speaks louder than your manipulative words.

well, just got back from manaqib at the mosque that my parents and i usually go to. and it made me realised something. i've been a really bad girl. really really bad. as subjective as the word "bad" can be, i know i need to bring myself closer to God in every single way. funny how in times of hardships and sufferings, we turn to God for answers. well, i'm partly guilty of that i guess. yes, i am. but to err is being human, however, it's really important not to repeat it. as for now, i'm counting my blessings for having such a loving family and a beautiful circle of friends.
all of you are simply unbelievable. thank you God:)


it's like a living nightmare
i see you even when my eyes are wide shut
i hear you even when i'm high above
i feel you even when i am numb
please. just go away.
i hate you.




*aaaaaaaaarggggggggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!* reality, you are my bestfriend :(

in the lift going to level 2221.. oh whoopsie.. correction, level 21.
circle of friends
top of the m
foodsie!
my seri :) 1st 3 mnths connection. (tjc and tpjc!)

and so, alecia had another fantastic celebration on her actual 21st birthday. lunch @ top of the M( which i didn't know the restaurant was a revolving one *slap me*), lotsa lotsa pics taken in the hotel room and toilet too( i'm serious!), heart attacks and da vinci code and many many smiles and laughters, which in many years to come will never be forgotten. :)

then after that, i met seri!!! *wheeeeee* and the minute she left me, i miss her already! reallie! and seri, thanks for everything. you are my motivation, girl! :p hopefully, the next time we meet, it won't be eons to come, ok? hehe.

ooh ohh...and, guess what? omar doesn't look like a caveman anymore because he had a new haircut!haha!miss you guys man. i wish i could spent more time with the sr people though, but, i had to do what i am supposed to do. tuiton and preparation for school. -sigh-

and lastly, HAPPY SECOND YEAR ANNIVERSARY WAZZY AND KHAI! i'm so happy for you guys and best wishes for your future endeavours! you both will pull through it no matter what. trust me on this. i mean c'mon, we are threesome still, aren't we? so, wish me too! *laughs*just kidding =P love you!


now my world's a deeper blue.with YOU.

"are you meeting auntie sofi?" "where is auntie sofi?" kids really say the darnest thing don't they? zikry is just so adorable. but too bad he didn't come my place today :(

oh wells, su's at my sister's place now for further clarification about what she needs to do regarding her relief teaching since she's taking over my sister's place for the time being. it must have been stressful for her because i've seen and heard the amount of work that she is supposed to do, and, trust me. it's taxing. but, i'm sure she'll do just fine. so, don't worry dearie. my sis and i have faith in you! *smiles*

anyways, i'm going to mark today's date. because... my brother's getting engaged tonight! haha. yes yes yes. so. 21st march 2006. we didn't make it that grand or big though for his engagement and i'm not too sure why. but i guess simplicity is sweet sometimes. so... *yippie* can't wait for tonight since my relatives are going to be at my place later! -wheeeeee-

talking bout looking forward to something, i'm looking forward to tomorrow! firstly, cos i'll be meeting fariza because we bumped into each other umpteen times and so, we decided to plan and meet up! hehe. secondly, tomorrow is alecia's actual birthday!!! despite the fact that she had a mind-blowing party, she is celebrating it again with her close friends at meritus mandarin. and lastly....err... err.. err...*laughs* i'm not even sure what in the whole universe i'm looking forward to. studying? heh...but hey... it can be quite fun sometimes, especially econs! i'm serious! hehe.


it's as though the wind brushes through your face.glide through it.

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love some one but it goes to waste could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth


YOU've always been the rainbow.for life.

it's a junior-senior thing =P that's why tenny's the princess and sofi's the queen! hehe
i'll stickwitu!!! through thick and thin! :) i am soo in love with alecia's cousin. he is so freaking cute. check out his sunburn and his t-shirt!
the girls @ her party!
frens of sim-uol!

*more pics in -GALLERY-* :) :) :)

today was so so so fun and super impromtu!!!met my dearest junior at the very last minute, 3 hours before alecia's party. so, we catch up on old times and she was my "honey" for the day. most of the time we were hugging and saying how much we miss each other! but don't get me wrong, i'm seriously straight ok... *laughs*

anyways, alecia's 21st party was no doubt, a BLAST!!! the 21 dishes, her wonderful friends(primary school, secondary school, jc, and uni *ahems(hehe)*) and her super-fun relatives were just unbelievable. i guess she had the most memorable party ever and with a great personality and loving people around her, no doubt she'll do well in life. so.. *yippie!!!!!!* HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY ALECIA!!!!

and to the sr-mcs people, i'm so sorry i couldn't make it to sentosa today :( sometimes, i wish i could myself into two pieces so that i could be in two different places at one time. but, it's ok, i'm sure you guys will have fun there too!

YOU are special.in every single way

oh gosh. i think there is seriously something wrong with me. i'm addicted to a lot of people. *laughs* i just met su a few days ago and i want to see her again. i just met salmah last week and i want to see her again! same goes to wazzy, khai, aziela, farah, shennie, omar, azim,tatia, ayn and a whole lot of other people. seriously, i think you guys are like my legal drugs that keeps me high on life! so must meet up soon again ok before i become a cold turkey! hehe. jus kidding =P

and yes ili, you've been saying that eversince last week dearie, but you are so busy with school

-wails- soon ok soon? before i start busy with schoolwork :( !!! (bring seri! i miss her loads too!)

shucks. talking bout school. i have less than 60 days before my major exams. so, red alert sofi. no more goofing around. stressstressstress. and yes, i have to start to bury myself with books and do mountainous research especially on sociology and busines&management. and for stats, i have to psycho myself to love it. sofi loves stats.sofi loves stats.sofi loves stats. econs? it's an understatement. you've always loved it, sofi. but, doing it is totally a different thing. sigh. but it's alright, have faith sofi. have faith :)

and my sister's tummy is so huge already! its due in about a months' time and its a baby boy!. *whoopeedooo*

but poor sister is going through a critical period now. she overworked to the extent that the doctor have to give her two weeks mc. eventhough she needs it, i know she's very preoccupied about her absence in school. well, i hope everything goes well for her. she really really needs to rest well. how i wish i could do relief teaching for her during the two weeks mc. but, thanks to my exams and piles of school work i can't do that. sigh. nevermind, but in a few months time, i'll be taking over her place,hopefully.(after my exams, of course). so yeah! can't wait. i miss relief teaching. the students,the curiosity,the fun classes,the teachers(some of them only),the canteen food etc. i mean different schools are different. so, i wonder how is it like to teach at my sister's school.hmmm.. im not surprised if the students ask, " aren't you Mdm Ernie's sister? but you both don't look alike!" haha. but that's still a long way to go. i have to go through a big hurdle first before i decide what i'm going to do during the holidays. so yeap, got to start my revision soon i guess. okie dokie. till then :)

YOU are beautiful.inside out.

cool.composed.relaxed before the actual thing
anxious.worried.super-paranoid a few mins before the big thing

relieved.happy.insane(haha!) after the big actual thing!!!

well, as planned, me and su went to the bloodbank @HSA today. and guess what? it wasn't that bad afterall! *laughs* in fact it was fun. the people there are really nice, though, i can't really comprehend what the nurse was trying to say. but, me, being me, was super scared initially.i was thinking about "what-ifs" and my imagination was just running wild. but, my heroine saved me from planet of the apes and brought me back down to planet earth. she assured me that everything is going to be fine. well, for those of you who knows me well. by now, i think you should know that "paranoid" is my middle name. haha! but, i'm slowly eradicating it. thanks to my past experiences and great friends around me too! hehe. and so, since it wasn't so bad afterall, i might consider to do it again in future, hopefully, if time permits. but i'm definitely not gg to do it alone. so, thanks su for accompanying me to the bloodbank!*hugs* then, after that, i decided to pamper myself for awhile and bought myself a pair of new shoes, when i am supposed to search for alecia's 21st birthday gift. but, i think i have in mind what to get for her already. so, *yippie*!!!

every time i think of you

i get a shock right through into a bolt of blue

it's no problem of mine but it's a problem i find

living a life that i can't leave behind

there's no sense in telling me

the wisdom of a fool won't set you free

but that's the way that it goes

and it's what nobody knows

and every day my confusion grows

every time i see you falling

i get down on my knees and pray

i'm waiting for that final moment

you'll say the words that i can't say

i feel fine and i feel good

i feel like i never should

whenever i get this way, i just don't know what to say

why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

i'm not sure what this could mean

i don't think you're what you seem

ok. wish me luck. quick! because i'm going for a date with a dracula at outram! haha. for those of you who don't get it. yes. i'm gg to the blood bank tomorrow and i'm super-dooper scared. well, i hope i'm healthy enough to donate though cos i haven been feeling well these few days. but, my heroine is going to be there to rescue me in case i faint(haha!). so.. thank you su!!! hehe. anyhows, met liy just now and it would be great if we could just rewind those days back in australia huh? undeniably unforgetable man. sometimes i just wish me and my brother can switch places so that i can travel around the world and come back to Singapore once in awhile. but oh wells. tt's just an illusion. so,stop it sofi. haha. so. again wish me luck. hope everything is gg to be fine and healthy. *fingers crossed* :)

sofi and salmah! scorpio babes!

step agreh after two looooooong hours of quieng
salmah and her bro. carbon copy. i swear.

i can't resist it. wazzy looks super damn cute la... and i miss danish!!! cos she looks like danish here. will go and visit him one day k hunz. soon. :)

actually i wanted to put these pics in e previous entry but i encountered some problems. so. yeap. here are the pics. more pics- in yahoo photos! :)

for i am so so so grateful for these wonderful poeple in my life.

wheee... i lurve lurve yesterday. cos i met my loved loved ones!!! met sal again eventhough i just met her like two days ago. seems like we can't get enough of each other now. haha. but then, one thing for sure. it was reallie reallie reallie great meeting her. though we queued like for almost two long hours at the IT fair for some singtel broadband thingey, we still had lotsa fun. from lj to the human traffic jam and the never-ending long queues. it was damn tiring la. but, time flies when you are with someone whom can never ever bore you. and sal, *hugs* thanks for everything. we are strong babies yeah?and we have each other and a whole lot of other people. so.. yippie!!!can't wait to see you again in the next few days( i think.. haha). but this time round with yasmin or to start mugging for our exams *wails* but whatever it is, it has to be soon k!( haha.. crazy sofi)
and of course, as promised, wazzy, ayn and me met mdm ainon later that night. she is still as gorgeous as ever that people mistook her for our "friend" instead of our beloved jc teacher. i'm not surprised by that actually cos she comes down to our level and we feel comfortable talking to her about anything under the sun. and unfortunately, there is only one in a million of teachers who are like that. so.. mdm ainon is definitely a gem to us:) someone who is so so so fun to be with and gives sound advice too. so, i have no idea when we are gg to meet up again. but, i'm planning to go back to sr to meet other teachers and surprise her one day. we'll see how it goes. toodles:)

Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya

Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi

Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi

Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali

Rasa yang kutinggal mati

Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini

Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi2mu

Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku

Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri

Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri

kcuf. :(

it's 5 in the morning. i can't sleep. i dunno why. tried to shut my eyes hoping to sleep but i can't.tried to read the book which i just borrowed from the library, but i can't. i reallie dunno why.but maybe.it could be because that im overwhelmed by what had happened today!cos, i went for a retail THERAPY!!! haha.. and trust me its shiok! (am i rite aziela? hee).. its like one of the bestest shopping spree that i ever went, where i just splurge into whatever i want, after saving for weeks. yes, im half broke now till i get my next tuition pay.but oh wells.it was damn worth it.haha.but on top of that.many unplanned things happened today.well.in the morn, met nadi and din for breakfast(was sooo nice to see them after soooo long.but it was so incomplete without nad :( ) then.supposed to meet teresa for shopping.well,we did meet but its only for while cos poor teresa wasn't feeling well.... so she had to go home... (and teresa dear.. it's ok.. don't worry... whatever it is, im glad tt u r feeling better now) then... i was frantically looking for ppl to accompany me before i meet the sr ppl at night.. so.. alecia saved the day for awhile..haha... but nevertheless..i did my fair bit of window shopping!!!but then... the real heroine for the day was aziela(she was with her sis though).. if its not for her... i'd be alone in town, shopping. haha.. but.. yeaps... it was reallie fun.. then.. of course... i met the sr ppl after tt.. i reallie reallie miss them.too bad aizat wasnt there.if not it'd been fun-ner.. haha... but.. so long as there are ppl ard me who can make me laugh and smile... im happy... thanks guys for the day... it was reallie reallie fantabulous. and farah, i never knew bout the moonwalk thingey tt u and omar did back in sr! freaking funny la u.. and shennie... prom queens rule!!! hehe... and ohhhmmyyygooodd... i forgot one thing... i accidentally bump into mdm ainon!!!!!! boy! i miss her man! and when was the last time me ayn and wazzy had coffee with her? 5 months ago? i dunno... but whatever it is.. she said our date is on!!! sun night... same place.. she better make it this time round*fingers crossed* so yippiee!!! another fruitful day(rite..the guilt for taking a break from studies just feels so wrong :( ).. haha..

Seems like just yesterday

You were a part of me

I used to stand so tall

I used to be so strong

Your arms around me tight

Everything, it felt so right

Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong

Now I can't breathe

No, I can't sleep

I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything

Opened up and let you in

You made me feel alright

For once in my life

Now all that's left of me

Is what I pretend to be

So together, but so broken up inside

'Cause I can't breathe

No, I can't sleep

I'm barely hangin' on

i woke up today hoping to see the little rascal but guess what? he left for a school picnic on a friday sunny morning when he's school supposed to start at 11. hmprh!! but oh wells... today.. another busy day and i'm super looking forward to it cos........ firstly, i'll be meeting my honeystars(minus nad cos she's in aus :( ) then.... meet teresa cos she's the all-time-fav shopping partner. haha. then hopefully... meet the sr ppl! -fingers crossed- so.. yeah!!! hehe
anyways, yesterday was a blast. cos.... in a way.. i have the permission to fly for awhile before i bury myself with notes and books. haiz. so.. yesterday.. i went to sch and met seetal and arvin. i miss seetal though i see her around in sch sometimes.. haha. as for arvin. it was so nice of her to come all the way to sim and study though i think smu is nearer for her.. haha. i wonder why. but.. the best part came after that.... cos... i met up with mash and sal!!!!! haha.. so we head off to jurong point which is e other end of the world to have our dinner and window shop.. then we were reminiscing our tj days.. be it angel and mortal, how noisy we were in maths class , gema temasek and dikir days(which i never knew my malay-ish side of time till i join mcs..haha) and how some of us cried after gema cos some of us were gg to diff jcs like me! hehe... but.. on top of that. im happy tt up till today.. we are still crapping jokes and whatever-nots together! soo... to the tj girls hidup temasek! haha(lame.. i know)
and oh yes..back home...the new maid just came today cos my current bibik is gg home this sat, after two years with us. the new bibik seems nice and zikry's fine with her...so i hope everything is goes well.. and daddy.... bought a new car! no wonder he msged me saying "where are you.im coming to fetch you wherever you are"... so weird of him to do that... and so he did at tamps interchange... haha.. and he surprised me with a new colour.. but the same brand....previously was mazda 3 but now, mazda 6 i think.. i dunno la.. but i like the smell of the car when i enter the car..its refreshing. haha(sick i know) sooner or later... sister is gg to change to mazda also but i dunno wad model.so... yeap.. hasan's family is not only made up of teachers but mazda-fanatic.haha.. okie dokie. im running late. and i bet din is still snoring at home la. but i better get dressed now.. later then.. :)

i'm ok.i'm fine.i'm alright. urgh!!!!!

mood meter: very unpredictable.

if you think that we both look alike, trust me, you are not the first one to say it...we get it a lot from people. rite tatia? hehe
haha... my expression looked like one of my smileys on msn. agree? hee..
errr...
so grateful that i met you when i was primary one.so grateful that we are STILL as close as ever. and hope that it will be for now and future!! yeah!

based on a special request(since we met for awhile at tamps just now)...i'm going to blog about tatia nur farina!!!! hehe.. well well.. no doubt that among all my close frens, she knows me best. simply because i've known her the longest and i'm sooo thankful to the fact that we are still as close as ever and hopefully till the very end! we were from the same primary school... supposedly to be in the same sec sch... and supposedly to be in the same jc....but... as we live in a very complicated world where there are simply too many choices, i took a different path.. however,whichever path, i took i never regretted it. and gladly up till today... she's always there for me. thank you for everything!!! haha... and soo... i know... wazzy, ayn and many more ppl who mean a lot to mean are gg to ask me to write bout them... but you know what? i seriously don't mind because... you guys are worth writing for. worth every effort and toil.and worth everything. so... *aGREATBIGhug* hehe.. snafalafagus. i don't know what it means but... i think it means -i just wanna give another hug again- hehe. so... *aGREATBIGhug*

everyday is the best day of my life.

oh yes. be it on the 8th of March, or 18th Nov or even 8th Dec.. just live your life to the fullest.. well.. im tryin to convince myself that.. but.. yes.. the key word here is trying.. so..
boo-hoo... but.. sometimes... extrinsic motivation helps you to keep on going... so.. i'm trying....haha..
anyways... today's econs paper was horri-terrible.im only confident of two long questions out of six( i think).. urgh.. so irri-noying... funny how you can love and enjoy the subject but when sit for the paper, somehow or rather you know that you are screwed. oh wells... its not always rainbows and butterflies i guess... shitness.but... never give up sofi..aaaarrggghh!!!( sorry.. it just feels good to scream, sometimes)
but, on a lighter note, im quite relieved... cos... its only a day away... a day away to fly freely!!! and... a day away... before i meet mash and sal tom! yeah! so... 36 hours left and counting....
and tatia.. faster faster upload the pics k!!! can't wait to see you again, this sat. haha..

It's hard for me to say the things

I want to say sometimes

There's no one here but you and me

And that broken old street light

Lock the doors

We'll leave the world outside

All I've got to give to you

Are these five words tonight

Thank you for loving me

For being my eyes

When I couldn't see

For parting my lips

When I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream

Until that dream was you

When I look into your eyes

The sky's a different blue Cross my heart

I wear no disguise

If I tried, you'd make believe

That you believed my lies

You pick me up when I fall down

You ring the bell before they count me out

If I was drowning you would part the sea

And risk your own life to rescue me

the discovery of su's prettiest thing in the whole wide universe... her purple canon ixus camera!

well.. we just wanted to compare who has bigger eyes.. and obviously the winner is. *ahem* muahhaa. just kidding su.. u know i still love you! su looks damn cute here la...

all in all... thanks su .. for making my day... well.. at least in the morning :) *hugs* you simply rock my world babe!!!

ok. i'm not supposed to be blogging now. but i couldn't help it. i'm mentally drained from econs.... from slutsky to hicksian and whatever-nots.. paper starts at 10 tom though.. hopefully dad can send me before sending zikry to school.. hehe.. but anyways... today i met su!! after weeks and weeks of complaining for not meeting me! hmprh.. no doubt it was great meeting her eventhough it was only for two short hours or lesser. i mean. c'mon.. its su... no.. IT'S SU!!! haha.. so.. we went for branch and then... i discovered that she bought, according to her, the prettiest thing in the whole wide universe... which is... *drumrolls*..... her purple canon ixus camera!!!! hahaha.. so... us being us... took lotsa pics.. but reallie reallie... her cam is so gooddamn cool... damnmits. i'm craving for a new digital camera now. but, on second thots, im craving for a looooot of stuffs now. that's why i need to do retail therapy. and when i say retail therapy... i really mean retail THERAPY.

and oh yes... before i forget... i wanna say thank you. a big BIG BIG thank you to wazzy dearie for taking the time and effort in designing the bloggie for me.. i reallie reallie reallie appreciate it!!! the 5 different designs that you did were definitely beautiful... but me being the boring me chose the most simple one.. but actually, right from the start i've always wanted evangeline lilly's pic. so, eventually i got it! yeah! haha. i've no idea how you did it. but, nevertheless, thank you honey!*hugs*