*hugs

When this video was shown during the champs meeting,it truly touched my heart and made me tear. how can a simple action be so so emotional impactful to oneself? its the simplest and smallest things that matters most. go give someone or your pet or your teddy bear a hug today.*hugssssssss

Anyway, THE day of dressing up like "harmonie(harry potter)" finally came!honestly, i felt a little bit tey-ney-ney because most of my study buddies was in session 3 rather in session 1. but nevertheless, if not for my family, zak and a few kodoks, i would have probably drowned myself in the regalia alll by myselfffff.
nurain, gua sayang sama kamu ia. thank you for alwayssss alwayssss being smileyyy and happy.will never forget that laughter of yours!

su-isk, spank spank youuuuuuuu for cominggg. JIAYOUUUU for your exams

zak, thank you for making my uni life sweeter and my final year in uni the MOST memorable one ever.*hugs

bahhhhh. i am so so going to misss meeting these peoplec in school.

my beloved family.*hugs.

anddddddddddddddddddddddddd, we are ONE baby!
:)))))))))))))))Alhamdulilah:))))))))))))))

many manyyyyyyyyy manyyyyyyyyy more days, months, years to come InsyaAllah, Ameen.

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I love you Zak, so so much.

are you sick? probably you want to visit Allah's Clinic, the bestest remedy ever! :) anywayyyyy, will upload and tell more stories about my convocationnn. woohooo!:)

I went to the God's Clinic to have my routine check -up
and I confirmed I was ill :

When Allah took my blood pressure. He was
I was low in tenderness

When he read my temperature, the thermometer
registered 40 degree of anxiely.

He ran an electrocardiogram and found that I
needed several "Love bypasses" since my
artries were blocked with loneliness and
could not provide for any empty heat.

I went to orthopedics, because I could not walk
by my brother's side and I could not hug my friends,
since I had fractured myself when tripping with envy.

He also found out that I was shortsighted, since
I could not see beyond the shortcomings of my brothers and sisters.

When complained about deafness, the diagnostic was that
I had stopped listening to Allah,
voice talking to me on a daily basis.

For all of that, Allah gave me a free consultation
thanks to His mercifulness, so my pledge is to,
once I leave this Clinic,
only take the natural remedies he prescribed through his words of truth.

EVERY MORNING,
take a full glass of gratitude

When getting to work, take one spoon of peace

Every Hour,
take one pill of patience, one cup of brotherhood and one glass of Humility

When getting Home, take one dose of Love

When getting to bed, take two caplets of clear conscience

Do not give in into sadness or desperation for what you
are going through today.

God knows how you feel.......

God knows exactly and with perfection
what is being allowed to happen
to you in your life at this precise moment.....

God's purpose for you is simply perfect.

He wants to show you things that
only you can understand by living what you are living
and by being in the place you are now.


May God give you........
For every storm, a rainbow,
For every tear, a smile
For every care, a promise
And a blessing in each trial,
For every problem life sends,
A faithful friend to share,
For every sigh, a sweet song,
And an answer for each prayer.

How trueeeee:) get well sooon yea and i hope you will be in the pinkestttttt of health, emotionally and physically always! *hugs.

em⋅brace (m-brs)

1.	to take or clasp in the arms; press to the bosom; hug.

2.	to take or receive gladly or eagerly; accept willingly: to embrace an idea.

3.	to avail oneself of: to embrace an opportunity.

4.	to adopt (a profession, a religion, etc.): to embrace Islam.

5.	to take in with the eye or the mind.

6.	to encircle; surround; enclose.

I came across this word too many times but failed to internalize the true meaning of it. Though I'm still in the midst in internalizing the meaning, I constantly remind myself to accept things just the way they are. There are so so so many new things out there, to learn, to cherish, to love, to care and to hope for. Is there a need to be cold? Is there a need to worry? Is there a need to really sweat the small stuff ? Eventhough these negativities are being slapped at our faces everyday, embrace it, for that is just one of rules of life.

You can pull through this, Aidah. I know you can. *hugs

song CONSTANLY ringing in my head:

"I used to rule the world................Seas would rise when I gave the word!!!"

This time round. I made a bad decision. A really baddd one. But with bad decisions, come experience and then, come good decisions rite?haha. So, the next time, when Coldplay comes to play in Singapore again, Din kentutttt or sister or whoeverrrrrrr la, pester and beggg me like mad to go okay? Bahhhhhhhhhh.

Andddd, meet my dadddddddddd.
Well, he doesnt exactly have triple chins or something, but this is his very best attempt to look "slim". with stomach totally sucked in and posing his better profile. haha. so cute rite? now that he is so so into psychology, most of the conversations that was transpired between us is about human behaviour and their mindset. upbringings, unforgetable experiences and stories after stories and after stories. it's really nice and something fresh to talk about. and the personality test that he asked me to take is definitely true. like hello! High in anxiety?!!?!? yikes! haha. but one thing for sure that made me laugh was when he said, " Itu pasal, sebelum kau kahwin, lebih baik kau suruh lelaki kau ambik test nie. Bagus untuk kau" hahaha. Im sure we don't need that now because by then, the sixth sense would have been better at making good judgements.

And so, Viva la Vida, people.
LONG LIVE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!! :)

hahahaha.
okay.
amongst all the things i want to share, this one is a a
MUST MUST MUSTTTTTTTTTT-read entry on Zakk.

quote-unquote from nadi's email, "u know what to do if it ever happens :p" ohmygoddd. that was seriously damn hilariouslaaaa. and whaddayano, zak lovesssss zakk too la. here's more on zakk's comics- http://www.mmm-boogrrs.com/comics/comics.htm
so! that's Jacheceh for you. he is seriously getting more and more bimbotic day-by-day, winning the crown of the world's kental-an matt in the whole wide universe. heh.
sayang kau.
JIAYOU people!
always look on the bright side of life!
tada!tada!tada!tada!:))))))))))))))

i figured, since i've not updated my blog for a loooooooong time and i might as well post it here, rather than just FB, here is my 25!

1) when i was in primary school, i used to hate the mole on right cheek and tried all sorts of ways to get rid of it; using eraser, scraping it off with my fingernails, etc... aku gatal..haha. but now, its all over my face and you can literally play, "connect-the-dots".

2) but as i grow older, i learn to love it and little did i know, i have a really REALLY HEU-GEEE prominent mole.. ermmm somewhere above my buttcrack? sighh. haha. sometimes, when i bend down and wear a bootcut jeans/pants i have friends saying, "SOFI!!! there's a buggg somewhere near your waist!!!" haha

3) a few of my jc classmates and i call ourselves the, "buttsistas" because we literally smack each others butt in school and there was once, i thought a teacher, caught us doing that as she said,"Just now, i saw something disgraceful and disrespectful....." i was damn freaked out, because i was afraid the council name was at stake yadda.. yadda.. yaddaa.. and only to realize that it wasn't us. aku kentallll. hahaha. damn i miss those days! superfriggin fun can!

4) my dad was a discipline master and a malay teacher in my very own secondary school. hence, expectations and also, wonderful descriptions as well.my dad and i carry the name, "buncit and anak buncit" haha.damn hilarious and till today, if i bumped into any of them, they would ask, " amaciam , buncit? eh ehhh. sorry.. amaciam Cikgu Hasan??" kurang asam riteeee?haha!

5) im afraid of breaking rules. which explains why i will try my best to be early, try my best to follow every word and every letter in that rule and because of this, I can be quite a square. like my jaw-faced shape doesn't spell enough. haha.

6) anddd because of this, i can be quite gullible, AT TIMES. oh god. one gullible moment i can never ever forget was when zak and ayn paired up to play punk on me in jc, that the teacher called us because we left early for SAT class. OHMYGODDDDDDD, superkentalnakmampos kan last time???!??!?!

7) okay, FINE. two gullible moments. i believed Mark's words when he told me that Jai was a FREAKING ANGLO-AFRICAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

AAAAN LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!when actually, he is a Chindian. MARK D'SOUZA!!! hahahaha

8) i still find it very leceh to wear contact lens. hence, when i don't wear contact lens, nor spectacles, i have the tendency to wave at any tom,dick or harry whom i thought is my friend. this has happened a couple of times, so BEWARE! haha. su and isk coined it as a "sofi moment" as it happened to them before too.

9) i think funny people are smart people. sometimes is their actions, which is funny and sometimes it's just how they tell the jokes, in a non-offensive and tasty way orrr sometimes is just their personality!

10) my parents have this thing about jokes. my dad will genuinely tell really lame jokes like, "why is Buangkok named Buang-Kok" while my mum will innocently "tell a joke" by saying "eh sofi..... are you going to Starbucks to pay your bills?"

11) i wish i can turn back time and be smarter in my financial planning. moving forward, i hope my strategy works now.

12) i am actually quite a minahhh cos i think it's quite funnn siulll !!! considering that my dad is a malay teacher, i am sure he is proud that his daughter is still speaking in malayyy. haha. but butt, i still think the malay arts scene is beautiful.

13) i wish i can revive gema temasek days, but this time round as an auk-auk and not as a juara. girlsssssssssssssssss, dikir lagi ahhhhhhhhhh!

14) when i was a trainer i lost a stack of 15 cards(roomkeys). painful painful experience, but a good-learning one. learnt from it and moved on.

15) i can't teach malay dance for nutssssssssss. the last time i did, it turned out to be a DISASTERRRRRRRRRR, but an unforgettable one.i don't even know why that dude gave me that responsibility! hahahahahahahaha.

16) i am a very very emotional person and when i am, i will remedy it with a lot a lot a lot of rationality. sometimes i forget about it and it's very very dangerous :S

17) i love motivational/inspirational quotes. it makes my day more and more meaningful eventhough i'm at the lowest.

18)I also like the Ebbinghaus illusion because it’s a reminder that context is everything, and perception is relative. If you can’t figure out what you’re looking at, examine what’s around it instead. zak, you are awesome for telling me about it.

19) i love to hug and hug to love. so if you need one, i'm here! a hugging machine!:)

20) i wish all the eateries in Singapore is Halal, Subway, Carl's Junior, etc... if not, jb ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.tom. amaciam?? haha

21) chrystella and aisha never fails to inspire me always. They are really really amazinggg and their warmth, tender loving care is one of a kind. 16th SC!*hugs

22) i wish my brother speaks out more, like he used to. yes, i do have a brother.

23) i will joget-joget, gelek-gelek to the MAXXXXXXXXX , if i hear a familiar tune of hindustani song, no matter where. i did it in Thailand, in a wedding andddddddd in front of my relatives without me even realising that they recorded me in video. haha. so fun!

24) i believe in the power of believing. henceforth, i am a very optimistic person. but once negativity bites, it can be heaven or hell for me. so,you keep on believing positively okay?*hugs.

25) i secretly can't wait to have my own kids of 9845932840284302. hahaha:)

BATMANNNNNNNNNNN!!!!:)

sayang bangatttt!

the super efficient organiserrr-MONAsss.
and the orgasmic wafflesssss.

aunty din heh-py or whattt.

with Usher on the ferry.RITE.haha.

life is a holiday baby!
treasure every single second of it.
the good, the bad and the ugly.
kata, JUTAWANNN.
(millionare!)
haha.
*hugs

what do you normally think of before you sleep?

back then when i was in secondary school, almost each night before i sleep, i would conscientiously take the effort to ask myself, "what have i learned today?" i thought about what i did in the classroom and back at home. I vividly remembered the words of Ms Chia(my-then english teacher) in how she helped and encouraged me in more ways than one. This conscious effort in which i inculcated somehow made me stronger and wiser while i was panicking in the examination hall in my finals.

now, almost each night before i sleep, i would naturally ask myself, "what happened today?" sometimes i would chuckle myself in bed thinking about the lame jokes that my dad told us, ; like his own interpretations of buangkok, sometimes i would cry to sleep just thinking about the movie i just watched-'seven pounds' and sometimes i would smile in the kind gesture of that stranger who helped that blind man in the mrt. afterwhich, i would think of how lovely my family is, when we have birthday celebrations, hari raya and all sorts of wonderful gatherings. and then, i asked myself, "what will happen tomorrow?" that's when it gets scary and stormy and dark. of course we would all like to look on the bright side and think only positively. but when a dear friend of mine experienced a family tragedy last december, it never fails to haunt me till today. i cannot imagine any of the unfortunate events happening to my loved ones because they are too precious to me. it's something beyond any of our control and nothing much we can do about it. however, given a choice, its good to give something with all that we can within our control *hugs. i hope she's doing fine, as well as her family.

The movie, "seven pounds" impacted me deep because if not for that movie, i wouldn't feel this way and wailed buckets&buckets in the cinema.
Will Smith is such an awesome actor and Seven Pounds was very very impactful. I should stop crying now as tomorrow brings a new day and new breathe of fresh air.*hugs

yesterday,when zak called me,he GENUINELY asked,

" are you still worried about the world?"

kurangHASAM punyer budakkkk. yes yes, i don't deny i was seriously over-reacting about the whole issue. you can only imagine how freaking EMOTIONAL and INSANE i was over the last weekend when i read the news online, especially how different the two countries potrayed about the recent developments. i had thoughts of becoming a soldierrrr and thoughts of even becoming a doctorrrr to help the innocent victims. i didn't know what was going through my mind but i knew i was emotionally involved in the crisis. pretty funny though, when i tried to picture myself as a superwoman, flying 859385934593km to Gaza and trying to save the world!haha. my imagination was going wild and out about everything and anything. but after talking to my colleague, she said this line and it made me have a peace of mind.

"anything that is good or bad, do NOT let it affect you for more than 30 seconds"

somehow or rather, i felt at ease and was able to focus on the necessary. no doubt it only contains 17 words but that very 17 words was probably one of the many many best medication to my emotional well-being. funny how these words are just words, but people can be so affected by it. it's not as though it's a punch or an atomic bomb but i guess it's really how much"vitamins" we read and internalize everyday and keep us emotionally healthy. i know fo-SHO i am going to need truckloads and truckloads of it, and of course, lotsa lotsa of fun,love and happiness.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :)

hello beautiful world! peace?

if only the solutions to ANY problems in this universe is as easy.

love everyone
learn from own or other people's mistakes
and
make it right.

seriously, eversince the mumbai bombings and the attacks at Gaza, i have somehow been emotionally involved in all this. i don't remember the same feeling when i was a student a year back where my focus in life is to do well in school. but now, with more responsibilities in life, everything that's happening around the world is affecting me and it's really scary. it doesn't help the fact that many of those who suffered are young children. young INNOCENT children.many times i question myself, why why why do conflicts have to happen? is it so hard to reach an agreement and stick by it? is it so hard to be patient and be appreciative to what we have? is it so hard to do good? the only thing we can do is control the controllables. one, is our emotions, two, is our rationality and three, our actions. so, put it to good use and continue to spread the love, generously.*hugs.

looking back, there are so so many things i want to pen down about 2008. overall,it had been a really REALLY "challenging-blessed" year for me.i never thought i can overcome my fear and worries and i never thought that the positive-impossible things can really happen. there are so many discoveries that i made about myself and many more things about life i learned from others. though those challenging moments were stressful and nail-biting, it was fun to go through it.maybe because its a novelty, maybe because its simply challenging my capabilities, but whatever reason it is, it excites me to learn more. but none of these could have happened without the support. support from my own constant positive-mind attitude and support from family members, friends and strangers alike. *hugs

Happy 2009 Hunny-bunnies and this is my favourite wish i received and would love to share it with you;

life is short,
break the rules,
forgive and forget quickly,
love truly,
laugh uncontrollably
and
never regret anything that made you smile.

Have a FANTASTIC 2009, everymonth, everyday,everyhour,everyminute,everysecond.

i can be impatient
i can be a klutz
i can be a perfectionist
i can be a worrier who sweats the small stuff
i can be a crybaby
i can be the universe's meaniest person to oneself.
i can choose to go on and on and on beating myself up and not do anything about it.

but
i can also make small and big things happen
i can make a difference in people's life
i can be a better person
i can be very patient
i can be everything i want to be

only if the mind wants to.
and i choose the later.
and the mind really really needs that ALL THE TIME.
yes Sofi, ALL THE TIME.
please make that as a habit.
*hugs

law of AVAILABILITY, not law of scarcity.


law of AVERAGES, not law of insanity.


law of ATTRACTION,not law of destruction.

fully physically-abled, BUT, not mentally-abled?
fully mentally-abled, but not physically-abled.

honestly, on my part, i feel embarrassed to complain, whine, get upset about the littlest things in life. when there's people like Nick Vujicic to proof otherwise. As i was watching the video, no arms, no legs, no worries, i was very inspired by him, in how confident he talks and gives motivation to people, despite his physical limitations. I guess it just shows one thing. Focus. Focus with all that we possible can BECAUSE we physically can do it. Let's not be mentally disabled(which I am sometimes a victim of that) and do all that we can to be fully mentally-abled and feel blessed that we have arms, legs and body.

this is basi laa.
but makkkkkkkkk.
kennot take it lor
damnn hilarious and embarassing cannn!!!
"hari bodohhhh dayyyy"
one of the yideosss for e 22nd burpday and shidah! ayn! upload e videos! quick! i want to seeeeeee! haha.

one day before 18th Novemeber 2007.
zak yayapapaya labelled sofi as, "the-love-of-my-life"
and sofi can't stop rolling her eyes till it fell off the eye socket.

daysss after 18th November 2008.
and now, sofi can't stop HEH HEH HEH HEHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
and zak, HEH HEH HEH HEHHHHHHHHH also la horrr.
HEH HEH HEH HEH
and
i HNGH you ahhhhhh zak.
<3

i cringe everytime i read the previous post, especially e last part. HAHA. but come to think about it, we always forget to love ourselves, pamper ourselves and take care of ourselves FIRST, before we do the same thing to others. its a good thing that we constantly look out for each other, every nano second of the day, just to make sure that someone is okay/happy. but really really, don't feel big-headed or TTM(tak tahu malu) to admit you are the BEST thing ever that has happened in this universe for YOURSELF and GOD's greatest gift.because, it is TRUE. so, shop like you never shop before. go to the masseuse or spa or facial that you've always wanted to. listen to yourself and protect that precious heart of yours. never ever ever let anyone take anything away from your dreams. only when you start loving yourself, believing in yourself, have faith in yourself, everything else is magic:)

for what's worth, all the birthday celebrations&wishes is/was truly magical and from the bottom of my heart,i sincerely thank you.

i love you.

Dear Sofi,

Though age is just a number, what matters most, lies in your heart and in your mind, ESPECIALLY in your MIND. You have just got to keep on believing in yourself. Listen to the good stuffs and do good things. Dream BIGGGGGGGGGGGGG and keep on going and going and going and going and going and going and going and GOING and GOING. I believe in you.
Happy 22nd Birthday, I love you Sofi.

Love,
Sofi

Do you think you have a psychological problem?

because seriously,
i am THIS CLOSE to run.
so please, don't drive me.

starting from tomorrow, i am going to wear my Havainas to work. yes. the Brazillian slipper-sandal which makes my feet looks naked. so, no more brown or black pumps. and just before i reach the lift lobby, i will go to one secluded corner and THEN change to heels. simply because, firstly, the weather is pretty unpredictable these days that it can look super sunny in the morning and raining cats and dogs in the afternoon, leaving my pumps/heels freaking soaked. secondly, my feet have yet to condition itself to heels. so eventhough it's my 5984375983745937593th wearing it, plasters is a neccessity. i've yet to try and test it, but i think it's more practical than pumps. will see how it goes.

so, i've been reading, listening,talking and watching about stuffs related to work&life and, i am really really beginning to understand why the sky is blue. there are a lot of nay-sayers, faulty thinking messed up in our brains and people who tend to resonates negativity with us when we entertain such thoughts. the sad truth is that these "people" could also be me. these negativities will then manifest into the most wicked things of them all. but the best deal here is that in one second, it can all change into a whole different dimension and bring anyone to the moon. at this point of time, let's not care if it's unrealistic, be affected by the judgements of others/the scarecrow and entertain the what-ifs. the real deal here is that

i believe. i feel. i desire. i want. i write. i draw. i talk. i dream. i visualize. i see.
and i know.

Fusohhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:)

i think i have been losing myself lately that i FORGET all about believing. i let myself immerse into it and let the emotions get the better of me. i forget what is being patient is all about. i forget in believing in myself and worry till all the batteries are used up unnecesarily in me. i forget in redha-ing despite the efforts. i forget in ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS looking at the bright side.

so please, Sofi,

1) STOP BROOODING.
2) STOP COMPLAINING.
3) STOP THE UNNECESSARY CONTROLLABLES.

SUCK.IT.UP and JUST.LET.IT.GO.
and REMEMBER, what goes down must come up and what goes up, only stays up.
good day! :)