it's such a waste that seri couldn't join us just now:((( -wails- but, nevertheless, i had a ball of a time with the girlfriends! we went from coffee bean to food culture and to MacD with my red-buttoned-nose and watery eyes of mine. *laughs* ili,huda,hafi thanks for the advice. really appreciate it :)

anyway, before that, i accompanied my sis to the hospital, with zikry and redha for her regular check-up. it was kind of culture shock for me because it's the first time that my sis, the kids and i independently went out. amazingly, we survived, with zikry being a little bit demanding, but, quite a chatterbox to everyone by saying "hello!!" and going on and on bout robots, transformers and machines.and redha, who is constantly grunting. yes, grunting because he's either hungry or too full. which explains his weight and err.. super-nice-too-hug body.haha. but, today is just the warm up. the real deal comes tommorrow where my sis,her kids and i are going to shop in town. which means, toys"r"us is part of the plan. and, once zikry is in there he will never want to go out. i'm praying hard that tomorrow he'll a good, understanding boy*laughs*already, i'm struggling with zikry running all over the place and i wonder how will my sis and abang imran handle it when he returns home from reservice. nahhh... i'll think they'll be fine:) as always. but being a babysitter is not bad to think it's a responsibility that i enjoy! *laughs*



what day is it
and in what month this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from

today, was great! something which i want to remember for good:) well, it kicked off with my cousin's wedding in the afternoon.a simple and sweet wedding.but, irresistable hidang of jenganan, sambal sotong and lemak ayam.

after which, i headed off to raz's 21st birthday party at east coast with isk!
raz,rahman,isk,sal and rahman's cousin, thanks for the wonderful day. hope to see you guys soon! :)

congratulations kak nana! *Happy 21st Birthday Raz*
the sr connection. junior sofi.senior rahman.and, junior rahman -laughs-people at the party. or more specifically, the malays at the party!isk!!!
finally, us:)

okie, i'm dead tired now and i'm not sure how i'm going to survive next week's ordeal with diapers, screamings,quarellings, and repulsiveness. well, i just hope that the little rascal will be controllable and my tuition kids adhere to my instructions closely, when it comes to me giving their respective homeworks. but, though they get on my nerves sometimes, they are still cute, aren't they? oh wells, they are just one of life's little ironies. annoying but yet irresistable :)

you had me at hello.

for once, please, just for once, put your mountanious ego aside and accept the way it is.
patience is a virtue.

anyway, it's been forever since i last laughed so hard and had pure fun. so, for the past few days, i had it all :)
shopping with teresa on friday was great! she carried more plastic bags than me only because i'm so fussy with my choices*laughs*but, nevertheless, i enjoyed the shopping spree with her though i had blisters on my ankle! well, as planned, my saturday was spent with wazzy,shennie,khai,omar,azim,tasha and izmal. but, not for a movie marathon -wails- but, just for one movie. i was so geared up for the movie marathon, but, sadly, due to unforseen circumstances, they decided not to:( anyways, i swear X-men 3 totally blew my mind away. i'm not exactly an action-packed movie fanatic. but X-MEN is an x-ception. superb cinematography and mind-blowing storyline. i must say that it's worth my $10.50 and i don't mind watching it again! juggernaut, you are my favourite one!*laughs*

and so, as usual, we headed off to the usual place, but only this time round, it was at a different location.
again. starbucks+khai+omar=laughing non-stop. be it about army stuffs, the movie or anything under the sun. they are literally clowns and if aizat were there, it would have been twice the crazinees!!!

not having a driving licence in the Hasan's family is a catastrophe to me now. funny how i didn't see much of a need to get driving license after my A-levels, back in 2004. but i think, it is a necessity,especially now,now,now!. each time i go home and see my brother's car rotting in the carpark for one week plus i'll be itching to drive it to wherever i'm headed off to. i have no idea what my brother works as, but it requires him to travel around the world, which leaves, his unattended car alone! on top of top, the journey to school have made me grown a beard that i'm losing my patience, if i'm travelling alone! tell me, how can i not just keep still? so, hopefully, i can get over my fear of driving and get a license soon!*fingers crossed*

:)

more fun days to come! more wonderful people to meet and more smiles and laughters to spread!
so, *smiles*

the-6-PIZZA-for-$4.90-day! :)

(blind cuckoo omar*laughs*)

CONGRATULATIONS TAYLOR HICKS!!!

you rock my sock and kicks hicks big big time! haha =P

i love the way he moves and i love the way she smiles:)))

nutty nut NAT!

:)

its the 26th of may. 12.35 a.m. more significantly, the torture is finally over; . anyways, things didn't really go as planned today.

question: "......profit maximisation......sole objective......company"

i'm very frustrated at myself, simply because, in the midst of choosing 4 questions in a measly 3 hours, i couldn't identify the question was mainly asking for social responsibilities of the firm! and when did i realise it? after the paper. congratulations sofi. keep it up. i swear wearing a spectacle is just not good enough for your eyesight isn't it? and so, me being me, nagged about it to sinping,sal and the whole world. -urgh-

that aside, well, supposed to have a mini tj girls gathering after that, but turned out to be me and nat day instead! *laughs* and you know what's the best part? we went baby clothes shopping at zara instead! the reason why i insisted on buying clothes for redha and zikry today was because today is redha's 1 mth birthday. and coincidentally, it was zikry's 4 years old birthday a few days ago too. not a very wise decision i must say because, tomorrow is the start of the GREAT GREAT SINGAPORE SALE! how clever sofi. but oh wells, funny how i can still find the stuffs that i bought today quite worth it! haha.

american idol. i was trying my very best to not get distracted by american idol when i woke up after suboh today to study. but sadly, the anticipating moments was too hard for me to handle! though it's kinda obvious who's the winner is, i must say katharine looked absolutely stunnning!!! i've always loved her brilliant smile and her powerful voice. but, soul petrol, i have huge soft spot for you though cos i just love the way you move!

and did i mention that taylor looks like cousin across the causeway?*laughs* oh wells, will show u the pics when i flock over to kl next week( i think.. nadi you better confirm with me asap! :))











so tell me quando, quando quando?





off

yes! three more days to freedom:) and the GREAT GREAT GREAT singapore sale is waiting for me to splurge into clothes, shoes and accessories.oh wells, what's two months of tuition savings for, huh?
anyway, there are a gazillion and one chapters to cover for IBM, but i'm not sure "spotting" the topics would be a very wise idea. and, it doesn't help the fact that concrete examples must be taken into account for each question. so, people of all races and mankind, i need your sheer goodluck and faith in me to go through this last lap. ameen.haha. =P

and so, that little rascal turns four today:) with a whole lot of BOB the BUILDER tools, TRANSFORMERS robots and all types of cars ranging from SUV-s to convertibles in his toyroom. so, what could your auntie possible get for you? definitely not toys! but, you'll get it soon! really special. :)

so, cheers to this thurs! ( mash, confirm with me asap!)
this fri!( teresa!!! i swear i can't wait! :)))
and this sat!( yes omar,weekend movie with the rest, just for your sake, so troublesome!)*laughs*( just kidding bro!)
and of course, cousin's wedding(again) this sun. :)

"Good morning Serangoon Junior College. There are 3 announcements for today. The first announcement....."

*argh!!!!!!!* i miss council times infinity. be it the embarassing moments like parade commandering, every tuesday, or, doing mass dance in front of the frehsman or screaming thunderous cheers anywhere anytime. sometimes i wish i could rewind my jc life minus the studying(*laughs*) over and over again.it was stressful and taxing because each time i'm supposed to do something which involves speaking in front of 27875727526 people, i freaked out. haha. and i remembered one of those days where i had to sing a birthday song for the principal in front of the whole school a few days after we got invested!!! haha.scary shit! but, it was fun! well, i've learned a lot from council be it my social skills, dealing with difficult people, organization skills and many more. so, though i went through hell with the rest of the fellow councillors, it was all worth it:)),

i dunno why i suddenly feel like blogging about council. maybe it's because the 15th is having a bbq gathering tonight. but seriously, i miss every bit of it. orientation.teachers' day.national day.grad ball. and our dearest TA's comments after each event! oh wells, whatver it is, 15th, 16th, 17th. we must meet up soon okie(after the 25th!) especially 16th!!!!! i love love you guys! :)

ok sofi. stop brooding.it's over and you've done your best.but seriously, why can't numbers and i just be the bestest of friends? well, though maths paper was tough, i'd be satisfied if more time was given to complete it. but, it happens to be that though how much effort i put in, we are still worlds apart.is it because my strategy was wrong? or is it because i'm just not mathematically inclined, no matter what. -urgh- statistics may appear easy to some people. well, it did to me too, initally. but then, i don't know what in the whole universe happened to me yesterday that out of the blue, i got stuck in certain questions and somehow, lost the command of the question. what in the world is wrong with you sofi??? -wails- :(((((((((((((((( though i tried to get my mind out of this matter, i know at the back of my mind i'm still very much perturbed bout it. i need to do something bout it. fast. *HELP!*

on that note, i have one more paper to go. and thank god that is a theory paper. well, i may not be fantastically well in writing, but i'd prefer that to anything which is maths-related. but then again, IBM can be quite tough though.oh wells, i'm meeting Sinping later to study for our last paper. so, hopefully, everything turns out right. and i have a feeling i'm not going to get over it for a looooooong time. but, post-exam activities seems enticing.

friends.shopping.food.movie marathon.sleepovers.overseas.relief teaching.pay. and......
lotsa lotsa lotsa fun, joy and laughter.


:) :) :) :)






and, you know i love you so....

and You are God's greatest gift to me.
daddy. how can i possibly not laugh at your silly jokes? you're the best!

if there is something so magically wonderful about life, it has to be you-s!!!

mom, thanks for bringing me into a whole new world and now, since you are comfortable with certain issues( which i never expected), i'm sure we have lots to talk about!

dad, you just love to teach don't you? well, do me a favour. continue to teach at acs so that you can still send me to school and.. spend quality time with your dearest daughter. kill the boredom to school with me! *wheee*:)))))

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

and of course, thank you for putting up with, erms. the irri-noying me.heh.*laughs*:)

toodles. it's time to hit the books again. -wails-

i'm still on the treadmill and i've a loooong way to go. 2 papers done:) and 3 more to go!
so, 25th may 2006, 5.30p.m
please come quickly.
i need my freedom back.
thank you :)







if the "i" and the "me" are perceived as two different identities,
does that mean you are intrinsically evil and just putting up a facade?
god knows. every single thing.

If the tragic predicament in the ancient world was the impossibility of happiness,
the tragic predicament today is the impossibility of finding happiness happy.

and in sofi's dictionary.
happiness equates with indulging in the sweet tooth, for now at least.
but then again, is that finding happiness happy?
-shrugs-

hello. my name is redha. and i have a round face, small long pair of eyes. i'm 11 days old and i think i have chubby cheeks too. i dun understand why people like to make funny faces to me and each time they do that, i'll frown my eyebrows figuring what in the whole universe are they talking about. but, i must admit it's funny*laughs* oh yes. each time i see auntie sofi. she'll be with her books or eating. she must be highly stress because it's written all over her face and her voice. but, i think i can help her to de-stress by just being there:) but, other than that, i have brother zikry who sometimes irritates me because he is sooooo demanding!each time mama breastfeeds me, he seeks for attention too.hmprh.its so not fair..but, i still love him.and my mummy and my daddy. and of course the whole wide world too. and yes, auntie sofi keeps on telling me this. each time, when u are sad or feeling low, smile cos you'll never who will fall in love with it. i guess i get that a lot from people cos of the many many kisses i receive from many many different people.

so,*smiles* to the world.






sometimes. i don't like you very much. :( :(

yesterday, was my most euphoric day of my whole entire life. why? no, ricky martin did not propose to me to be his beloved wife?*laughs* that will be the ultimate dream that will never come true i guess. did i get an offer to tour around the world for 88 days and 87 nights? close. but what i had yesterday was even more splendid! so, here was my yesterday( which kicks in only at night because i was mugging during the day)

Julie's 21st birthday party at aranda country club.no doubt it was another fun party:)))))

and so, me and alecia found a friend in him. but, more of him finding someone to bully, which is of course, the gullible me. *laughs* but, thanks for the great company sean.
got a lift from julie's friend, bing hong, in his cool sexy car to ridhwan's 10th birthday party! how i wish the place was further so that i could feel the adrenaline rush when he speeds with the sports car. haha.
believe it or not, we have to re-light the candles umpteen times because naughthy zikry keeps blowing them away!!!!
and we, the cousins had our own fun in nadi's room. and yes, nadi made me squeeze her boobs till it turns flat! haha.
and.... guess where did these 22 gawkers went to after the lil boy's birthday party?

1st stop: a night excursion to an abandoned house at punggol! yes! 4 cars. filled with people of all ages and mankind with aim of conquering the fear of those in another dimension. me? chickened out.

2nd stop: old changi hospital!!! gosh. i was so close to enter but i chickened out the very last minute. i was too afraid that i will get possessesed. and knowing that i have 9 days to exams and the possibililty of me fainting is high. i know silly me! but, observing them with the rest of my aunts was indeed fun!

i swear i didn't believe them and just brushed it off when they were talking bout visiting a haunted house initally, because i was too preoccupied with my studies. but, after the conversation got more intense between my aunts and uncles, they got more and more hyped up and they took out a piece of paper and wrote down. Car A).... Car B)... Car C).... Car D)... it was super crazy man.and it was super impromptu for me because i planned to burn the midinight oil at home and found out burning the midnight oil outside he abandoned house at punggol and old changi hospital. though the guilt for straying away from the books was tremendous, it was worth it :) so, were there any strange encounters when they entered the haunted house? yes indeed......... i'll tell you guys when i meet u personally okie? and, did that stop my family members, aunts and uncles, cousins from going again? nope. in fact, next stop, kubur bidadari and lim chu kang cemetry! i hope the next time i'll be brave enough to conquer my fear. but, if only a whoooole big group of people were there.

i love the family very very much indeed.

and oh yes, my lil' nephew has a name already! his name is muhammed redha. cool huh? so we have zikry and redha. but, poor baby boy is in the hospital now due to jaundice. i hope he will be cured soon because you have been missed ENORMOUSLY by your auntie sofi.

come home soon. love.

and it's a baby boy!
just look at the genuine smiles of a happy happy family! :)

and they are one of those; close to my heart. <3

welcome to the world lil' nephew!!! :):):)

you are such a joy in our family. the best part is, you look more to your mummy's side of the family instead of your daddy's! but, its too early to say for now. haha. i have every reason to look forward to each time i wake up:) and zikry, you are still as cute as ever. both zikry and his lil brother will no doubt bring down the house each time. and my sister is one tough babe. salutes to sister ernie! and so, these few weeks, sofi is associated with the bee. so, sorry if i can't make it to any meet-ups or shopping trips -wails- but as soon as exams are over, i'll promise you a helluva time of fun and laughter.*huggggsss*
and su huney, thanks for visiting my sister. *drumrolls* i'm sure someone looks forward to go to school each day now huh? why not?dumdeedumdeedum! surprise surprise.

note: his name have yet to be given. so yup yup. will update once i know:) but, please rememember 25th april 2006. the day he was born! *laughs*




why is it, that after so long, i still have a heart?
that beats with you and just persistently won't go away?

Happy 20th Birthday Twin! *laughs*

sidetrack: i don't think its obvious in the pic, i cut my hair and i look like crap. oh wells, probably will do something to it after exams! :)

23rd april 06. tatia's 20th birthday; after 14 years of friendship and still counting. *fingers tightly crossed* amazing isn't it?

well, i spent a short and sweet one and a half hours of her advanced birthday celebration at tamps just now. nothing humongous. no birthday cake. no candles. no flowers. just the two of us:) but... come later, i was a 'genie' and granted what she wanted. i know it ain't surprise. but hope she likes the present-s though. *laughs*

and alecia lim yan rong, i'm going to skin you alive! haha. i soooo regret rejecting your invitation last thurs at zouk for some mtv asia award thingey. i missed a golden opportunity to see colby, utt, etc and having a ball of a time there. -sigh- yes dearie, i regret not going for it. so, are u happy now? haha. was obliged to do something and i can't possibly not go for it rite? stresssssss.examinations.tuition.student's exams.sister.stresssssss but, friday was a good catch up with alecia.her never-ending stories of her bee-z life. studying with cheng hui and alecia was damn damn solid.thank you cheng hui. enlightenment:)

There's a song that's inside of my soul

It's the one that

I've tried to write over and over again

I'm awake in the infinite cold

But

You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

and pray to be only Yours

I pray

to be only Yours

I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars

Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing

and laughing again

When it feels like my dreams are so far

Sing to me of the plans that

You have for me over again

I give You my destiny

I'm giving You all of me

I want Your symphony

Singing in all that I am

At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

but you always believe in me...

***wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee***

:) :) :)

mom just told me a super good news about my sister today. monday. 37th week.

the moment i heard that, i was like new baby boy!!!nursery!!!! kk!!! funny thing is that, it was supposed to be on the 15th of may. but, my sister went for a scan just now and it showed that the baby was playing with the umbilical cord and all ready to face the world! wonderful surprise isn't it?well, i wonder what is she going to name her new born baby. hmm.. but oh wells, don't i just lurve surprises!!( pleasant ones i mean)

thank god, i covered quite a bit on my studies for the past few days. but, practice makes perfect. so, it's time to bite the bullet!

and did i say that family outings rocks big time? i just lurve it man. each time we meet up its like the first day of hari raya( minus the green packets. duh-uh. haha.) be it my mum's side or daddy's side. the funny jokes we shared, be it with the old generation or among the cousins ourselves, latest updates and etc. and, the best part of it all, i'm going to see them soon next week when my sister gives birth! so exciting!

there are so many wonderful things to look forward to,
my sis's new baby boy, my brother's wedding( june 07), my cousin-s wedding( may, sept and dec 06), kak jij's new baby(sept 06) and many many more! and, there shouldn't be any reason why i should be upset, rite?

so,

keep on smiling, baby. i'll be here.




and there is always something special waiting for us. precious.

*aaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

mood meter: negative one million :(

and no.... that's not my new specs. but, yeap. can't wait for my new specs to be ready.
we wuv taking multiple shots. cos, we can laugh and laugh till the cows go home!
azim, dun try to act cool can? you also cacat dot k! =P
so......far ( go figure!)

stressbusters for the day! :)

i needed these stress-busters after i was mentally drained from stats at tamps library.
well, hazelnut mocha frap did help a lil(though i hate coffee but i have no choice*puke*). but nevertheless,
thank you guys!
especially wazzy :)
can't wait for many many more fun days with many many people in many many more days to come :(
thanks to my upcoming examinations.

oh ya!!! i made a new pair of specs. i hate to strain my eyes each time i cant see words or people from afar. i had enough of embarassing moments when i said "HI!!!" to the person whom i "envisioned" and turned out to be someone else. grrr.... but then again. no matter how nice the specs is, i still dun wanna use it. haha*slap me* contact lens? nah.. too troublesome. haha. oh wells.

ok, that was yesterday.

today, was the celebration of maulidurasul s.a.w at the mosque today. and guess who i met? *drumrolls*........ i met sharf!!! ghee.. it's reallie a small world afterall huh? it was reallie nice to see you girl! after my exams, i don't care. we must meet k. update update and talk talk k! and pat, you owe me an explaination -laughs- why? you go and figure out why! * sofi step agreh* ( jus kidding.. miss you!)

and so it is....

i wish i could do something to make it better.

but,

i guess i was the root of it all...

i'm sorry...

hello beautiful universe!!!
haha. well, it's been awhile huh? let's just say never never land was never never what i expected:) i have sooo many things i have to say that i don't even know where to begin with! well, let's start with

1) studies.

got back my mock papers. and all i have to say is, *pure luck* especially econs which i never expected, when i answered only a few questions. but, i must not be complacent and work even harder this time round. soci, though it was just an average result, comments made were very encouraging. so, that's an extrinsic motivation:) and the rest, malvin!!! ian!!! agnes!!! or whoever i can clarify my doubts with. or else, i will go bonkers in no time.thankfully, all in all, im progressing, but gradually. i need to have a catalyst to speed up my thinking process. any ideas? probably cracking my brains and replacing it with einstein would help.hmmm.

well, i've not much time left, but, i shall not let unnecesary stuffs let it affect me at all cos, sad to say, it did affect me in my mocks. -sigh- i can't walk backwards can i? so.... the mirage is finally coming to an end sofi! jiayou sofi and to rest of people sitting for exams!

2) friends in school.

i love the fact that they reshuffled the timetable for the revision lectures cos i get to meet more people and hence, more frens *wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee* and guess what? finally, for the past one year, i've finally found a good malay fren in school !!! andie, you are sooooo going to make my life in sim lively-ier. :) malvin, your brains are equivalent to Karl Marx or Max Weber. aimin, don't we just LOVE amos witzum? love you babe! study date:SOON. and ian & company. you guys are great! trips to school will never be a bore anymore. thank god u guys stay in the east:) and alecia, kat,quincy,julie etc... jiayou!!!

3) friends everywhere

it's an understatement that i miss you guys. but, i've got to do what i've go to do. however, you guys will never be forgotten :) sooon k. SOOOOOOOOON!

4) su and the butt sisters!

no doubt i was touched by your story, su and the fact that you publicised your improvements on social skills in my testimonials.haha. for that, i thank you,love. but, little did you know that one thing that hit me hard was when you and the rest of the butt sisters came all the way to my place from the furthest of places one fine day just to comfort me. and that, was just unbelievable. i swear i will never trade anyone or anything with you guys. cos, during the darkest period, you guys have sacrificed time, money and everything, just to console me over some bloody person. and on that fateful day, i remembered bari'ah rushing from yishun to tamps and took a cab. su,kana and sha came all the way down to tamps from school. and seetal who miraculously bring me back to reality and surfaced the truth bout everything over the phone. and me, wailing, feelin all so emotional and touched at the same time cos they really tried their best to make me happy. the bouquet of flowers, chocalates and encouraging words and everthing. and this goes the same for wazzy ayn tatia teresa etc(you know who you are)... boy! that happened last year and guess what? i remembered every single event vividly.*thanks guys* and so, maybe, what they say is true,

the SIMPLEST gestures show the GREATEST love.

*a GREAT BIG HUGGGGGGGGGG*

5) me

---------------NOVEMBER BABY --------------------

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times.Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outerbeauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Standsout in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month.

got this calender baby thing from nadi and... hmmmm.. its true isn't it? well, not all of it. but yeah most of it. especially the last line *ahem ahem* what do you think? haha.

hmm, i know this is my ten millionth time saying this, but life is a learing journey. and each day, i think i begin to know myself better and forgive myself for what ive done and at the same time, learn and learn and learn from mistakes, experiences and everything else. for instance, regarding studies, i always have a zillion and one qns to ask about a certain concept. usually, i would 'give up' and stop asking when they say that i'm thinking too much. but now, i'd give my two cents worth and let them hear me so that the matter will be at rest rather than hanging. and regarding my weakness, i'd work on it. in fact, i am. now i know.i really really know.so, tell me. what do you know? hmmm...